Once In My Life

2009-03-17T15:00:00.000+08:00

Ok, I know this blog has been hibernating for sooo loooong…
I’m gonna make an attempt to revive it but can’t promise if it’ll stay on long..
Coz the owner of the blog is super duper busy nowadays..

She’s embarked on a new life journey altogether..
And yeah, tat she is me..

Hated this new journey when it first started..
But after almost half a year of doing it, Im starting to enjoy it..
And when I go on MCs, I actually missed my ‘clients’..
But then again, sometimes I hanker for a break when I’m at it..

And about the one exciting decision I left in my previous posting..
I can’t believe it’s been so long..
Time passed by so fast..
And only now I realized tat I have not taken any picture of it..

I shall take it soon and relieve the blog from all the suspense..

2008-07-13T23:40:00.001+08:00

Oh my god!!!
OH My GoD!!!
I jus made a very important decision jus now..

I’m so excited..
So so excited...Now I can’t wait for it..

2008-07-11T12:28:00.001+08:00

I was checking thru my oh-so-many unread emails..
Sending most of it to the trash folder..
And tis particular one stands out among the rest..

IT Tidak Relevan Diajar Dalam Bahasa Melayu

Why Dr. Mahathir insists on using English for math and science. Because globally people use the language as information and/or technology language at this moment. How dangerous it is if we were to use these words in Bahasa, especially in schools. See example below.

hardware = barangkeras
software = baranglembut
joystick = batang gembira
plug and play = cucuk dan main
port = lubang
server = pelayan
client = pelanggan

Try to translate this:

ENGLISH :"That server gives a plug and play service to the clients using either hardware or software joystick. The joystick goes into the port of the client.

"BAHASA :"Pelayan itu memberi pelanggannya layanan cucuk dan main dengan menggunakan batang gembira jenis keras atau lembut. Batang gembira itu dimasukkan ke dalam lubang pelanggan."

Hahaha..
Direct translation..
Sungguh tak senonoh..

2008-07-09T22:14:00.007+08:00

Yeay!! Finally..
Congratulations to Class of 2008

She looked like she jus finish crying..
Haha..
I love u mum..

And I love u too little brother..

And I love my frens too..
Whose been through thick and thins together..
Tests and assignments..
Term papers and exams..
And we finally made it to the finishing line..

And for these 2 sweet ladies whose gonna continue with honours..
All the best to u girls..

And I obviously love u, my dear..
Thanks for being there love..
And all the gifts tat u brought along..

Yes, I WAS THERE!!
For 3 freaking years..

Oh, they wanna try it on too..
Hehe..

Dearie's mum baked a cake for me..
Brownie, my favourite..
Thank you so much..

Once again..
Congratulations to Class of 2008

2008-07-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

I have jus finished reading Khaled Hosseini’s second novel, A Thousand Splendid Suns..
Other than movies, reading is another favourite pastime of mine..
And the book is beyond a doubt, one of the most remarkable book I’ve ever read..
His writing is stunning and very descriptive, like you can really feel the pain the characters were facing..
And I actually, unknowingly cried at certain parts of the story..
Like when Giti, Laila’s close fren, died..
When Laila had to send her daughter, Aziza, to the orphanage..
During Mariam’s final moments..
When Laila visited Mariam’s kolba..
And some others..
The book is definitely worth the read..

My brother is always amazed at how I will suddenly burst out with laughter or tears start to fall when I read a book..
I dun know when tis love for reading started..
Too bad for those who don’t find much joy in it..
Coz I believe one can “see” the whole world through the pages..

Oh, 1 more thing..
Am I lucky or am I lucky?
Dad booked another nite at the Swissôtel The Stamford tis weekend..
Coz I missed the fireworks last week..
Though they said it was very few, i still wanna watch it..
Ever since i was little, fireworks always amaze me..
But tis one, it's the location tat i'm gonna watch it from tat really excites me..
The distance between me and the firework will be closer..
Hah..
I’m so gonna make sure I won’t miss it again tis time..

2008-06-30T23:01:00.002+08:00

The view of the city’s skyscrapers and city centre from up above..
Snapped by yours truly..
;>

Stayed at the tallest hotel in Southeast Asia, Swissôtel The Stamford..
Our room wasn't really tat high up..
It was on the 26th floor, compared to the 61st floor during our first stay there..

Lucky for us, there was the rehearsal for our nation’s 43rd birthday, which was a fantabulous added benefit..
We caught the air show from the balcony of our room..
The planes were flying like real close to us and the noise were thunderous..
It was an enormously great experience, way beyond words..
I wanted to watch the fireworks from the balcony too..
Waited patiently for it..
Then at about 8pm my dad called and needed me at the lobby..
So I went down, and jus as I reached the lobby..
I heard it!!
“Dooommm”
“Doomm Dooomm”
Ah man, I missed it..
I really wanted to watch it from the balcony..
I dun know when will I ever get tat chance again..
Oh well, at least i get the chance to stay there..
I had a real good sleep, till I missed my morning prayers..
The bed were extremely comfortable..
And I submerged myself in a bubble bath for almost an hour the following morning..
I wished I had all those in my house..
Wishful thinking..
Hah..

Met Dearie on the Sunday, and watched the movie “Wanted”..
He said it was just ok..
Though it’s a bit of an over-the-top action movie..
I’d say it’s a great movie..
I prefer these kind compared to the superheroes..
The actions in the film were all top notch, lots of slam-bang action scenes, which somehow reminded me of The Matrix..
I like the plot..
Especially the twist element in it..
The main character played by James McAvoy made the movie an even excellent one..
To me, his performance was marvelous..
Angelina Jolie managed to kick some ass too, and she actually showed her own, though very briefly..
And I especially like how the movie ended..

I’ve been seriously thinking of getting something for myself lately..
Nobody in the world, except for Dearie and of course those salespeople whom I’ve enquired to, know about tis..
It’s a secret..
And still gonna be a secret..
Until the moment I get it..
Hopefully soon..

2008-06-25T22:14:00.003+08:00

Now I can't wait for 9th of July..

Someone can't wait at all..

Already put it on..

Hah..

2008-06-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

The movie Incredible Hulk wasn’t tat great as I’ve expected..
Yes, the movie was an action-packed thrill ride..
But it’s nothing tat special..
There's one thing I like though..
Tis time, the Hulk is portrayed as a more “human” character..
The immense power of the Hulk being compelled to protect the woman he loves and the inner turmoil showing in his eyes was outstanding..

……
….
...

I’m bored..

2008-06-10T14:11:00.001+08:00

Last nite was the worst squabble tat we ever had..
Spent close to an hour in the toilet, standing under the shower, hoping to let the emotions flow down along with the water..
I have a habit of listening to my mp4 at maximum volume when I’m feeling down..
Put it to shuffle mode and really listen to the lyrics..
But somehow, the songs tat came out last nite has got something to do with the situation I am in..
Which then made the tears flow even more..

It was a mistake, and I promise you tat I won’t do it again..
I know I’ve hurt u deeply, and I’m truly sorry for tat..

Pictures from last Saturday meet-up with my dear frens..

I love every second tat we spent together..
Can’t wait for the next meet-up..

2008-05-29T18:07:00.009+08:00

Feels like I haven’t had any rest since last weekend..
Saturday was shopping day out with mum..
Bought myself more than a couple of things..
And I already cant wait for the next shopping spree..
Woohhoo
Sunday was fun fun fun too..
Sentosa with frens and frens’ frens..

Tis Sunday is another outing for me..
Can’t wait..

2008-05-22T23:47:00.002+08:00

Earlier tis evening was the first time I went to the newly opened bridge near my house..
We walked towards the Alexandra canopy-trail, or whatever they call it..
Can’t really remember now..

It was very spontaneous..
My brother asked, and I agreed..
Without applying any make-ups or hair products, and without even bothering to change my clothes, we took off..

Halfway through the trail..
When we were really as tall as the canopies..
It started to rain like crazy..
Like cats and dogs and horses and goats and dragons and blah blah..
There’s no point in running in search of shelter..
Coz we were literally on top of the forest, with a long trail ahead of us, which really seems like it’s going nowhere..

It was nice, being surrounded by nature..
Even so not really when it’s raining heavily..
But, I would love to go there again..

2008-05-21T21:27:00.001+08:00

Tonite
Will be the nite where most ladies will be sleeping with a pillow hugged tightly around their head..
I know I will..
As for the men, they’ll flood the clinic tmr for MCs..
I can bet on tat..

Chelsea vs Man U
Seriously, I dun give a D**m who will win..

2008-05-19T00:08:00.004+08:00

It’s been a week since the end of school..
And I must say, I really am enjoying myself..
Now I can watch all the tv shows tat I missed due to school work..
And read story books all day long..
The book I’m currently reading now is Infidel by Ayaan Hirsi Ali..
Which is a really amazing book..

Anyway, about my weekend..
On Friday, I spent the whole day with my little brother..
Well he’s not tat little anymore..
But he’s the youngest, so I’ll always consider him as my little brother..
We went to Hay Dairies Goat Farm..
The goats were cute..
All of them seems like they’re smiling all the time..
We bought 2 packets of grass to feed the goats..
And I was shouting most of the time coz they put their heads way out..
And I kept backing away from them..
Coz I’m afraid they might bite my fingers off..
The time spent at the farms wasn’t tat long as I can’t stand the smell there..
The journey to the farms was a challenging one..
We missed the “Kranji Express”..
The bus tat’ll bring us straight to the farm..
So we decided to take Tibs bus 925, and alighted near Kranji Reservoir, as told by the bus driver..
He told us to walk down the road and we’ll reach the goat farm..
And after walking for exactly 2 hours and 15 minutes, after hailing 3 lorries hoping they’ll stop and give us a ride to the farm(which they didn't), and after being chased by a dog and after ‘taking’ 2 cans of drink from the frog farm..
We finally reached our destination..
It was crazy, especially under the scorching sun..
But it was fun..

And jus now, went out with my Dearie..
And u know wat honey, I love u so much..
I might complain a lot..
But u wat, tat’s wat girls do..
Hah..
Thanx for the surprises..
And thanx for the time spent with you..
You have been really busy with work lately..
And I’m really trying to stop myself from complaining about ur busy schedule..
Coz I know it’s for the best..

And honey, you made me feel something tat no other guys have done before..
Jus like how difficult for u to let me go jus now..
It was the same way for me too..

I love you..

2008-05-10T22:37:00.001+08:00

FiNaLLy

I’ve reached the finishing line..
3 years seems long when I first step into the school..
Now tat it has ended..
I feel joyful..
All the stress from assignments, tests, mid terms, exams is not longer gonna bug me..
But at the same time, sad tat my life as a student has actually ended..

Embarking on a new journey in my life soon..
With new challenges and obstacles..
All the best to all my fellow frens who’s gonna graduate and start on their new life journey..
May we cross paths again some day..

This last semester was really a challenge for me..
It took away the one thing I love to do..
MOVIES..
The last movie I watched was P.S I Love You..
I know, how pathetic is tat rite..
Tat was in February, almost 3 months without movies..
So after the final paper on Friday, I watched Superhero Movie and Over Her Dead Body..
Oh, I love it..
Movie-addict..Tat’s me..

2008-04-16T21:29:00.007+08:00

Earlier today, went to school and realised that it's gonna be the last few times i'm going there as an undergraduate..
I'm sure gonna miss all of it..
But definitely not the assignments, projects, tutorials, blah, blah, blah..

Searching for materials for our last assignment in NUS!!

The LTs tat i'm gonna miss..
Not the lectures, but the 'sleeping, day-dreaming, gossipping, stoning during lecture'.

Nie namenye, lecturer miang..
Insya Allah, satu hari nanti, sape tau kan..
Haha..
AMIN..

Dalam toilet pun sempat..

If you forgot to bring your hp or umbrella, no worries..

Shortcut to our favourite food stall at the Business Canteen..
Wanted to grab a picture with the Makcik, but she was busy chatting, so we decided to come another day..

Then we head to Science for Dinner..

Yummy

While waiting for the bus to our next stop, Yusof Ishak House(YIH), sempat amik gambar..

Dessert Time

Stomach satisfied, we head home..

Just for clarification purposes, if you tink my typical school days are as seen in these pictures, you are sooo wrong..
Classes are over now, hence the time to do all these..
During term time, it's so hectic tat sometimes I even went by a day without food..

Alrighty, now back to drowning myself in the heaps of papers and books, and give my best for this last assignment..

2008-04-15T22:09:00.003+08:00

05/04/08 & 06/04/08

The princess on that day..

Opps, wrong picture..

Hahaahhhahhha..

Sweet couple..

There's this poem I wrote out for them, but mistook the word document with another one and deleted it..

Haiya, so selenger..

There's a whole lot more pictures (Duh! obviously) taken on tat day..

But Blogger always takes a long time to load em' up, so, maybe next time..

And I actually wanna upload my favourite video clip taken on tat day..

But i can't seem to find the USB cable for the videocam..

So, maybe next time..

Till the next post..

Which i have foresee, will be some time from now..

Busy laa..

Haha..

To my frens from NTU & NIE,

especially Hafiz & Diana,
all the best for ur exams guys..

2008-03-25T04:19:00.000+08:00

2008-03-22T22:33:00.001+08:00

This is wat I feel like doing now..

AAARRRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!

I super hate my project mates!!

2008-03-17T22:46:00.008+08:00

I’m so in need of lots and lotss and lotssss of sleep..
My whole body feels so lethargic..
The weekend away was fun, but it wasn’t a relaxing one, at least for me..
Had to drive along the highway, which I love la, but very tiring..
And was hoping that I could get loads of sleep..
But at about 7.30am in the morning, my parents were knocking continuously on our door..
Turned to my brother and both were snoring away..
I actually ignored the knocking for a while but they jus refuse to give up..
Had to drag my legs and let them in..
Then we had to get ready for breakfast..

Some pictures from the weekend getaway..

As we were driving along the coast, we saw flags about 50m away from the shore..
Which I tink was a bit too much and quite ridiculous..

2008-03-13T23:07:00.002+08:00

I'll be going away for a short weekend trip in a few hours from now..
And i'm not gonna bring my handphone along..
So if i dun reply sms-es, it doesn't mean I dun bother aight..

Enjoy the weekend..

2008-03-06T22:20:00.003+08:00

God..
I hate Thursday..
Longest day of the week..
Was in school from 9plus in the morning up till 6.40pm..
And didn’t even had time for lunch..
Supposed to have an hour of break in between the classes, but the lecturer dragged the tutorial for half an hour..
So imagine, no food, except for a sandwich bought in the school canteen early in the morning and a curry puff from Old Chang Kee in the late afternoon..
I was so tired and weak that I practically dragged my legs to the last lecture..
I bet people within 10m of my radius could hear the flaps of my slippers..

In the last lecture for the day, I was complaining and whining about how hungry and tired I am..
Then I suddenly remember something..
It is my dad’s birthday today!!
Haha..
How could I forget tat sak..
Immediately took out my hp and msg him..
Hahaha..
I must have been too busy till I forget bout it..
I know, wat a lousy daughter I am, rite..
Whatever..
And he replied, saying I Love You..
Woohoo..
It’s difficult to get tat from him..
And I love u too dad..

Happy 47th Birthday to my Dad..

2008-03-02T03:21:00.000+08:00

If only you knew..
It’s not easy for me either..

2008-02-29T23:30:00.001+08:00

Wat a pathetic entry for a special date tat comes once every 4 years..
But I’m glad though tat I spent tis special day with special people in my life..
Went for PTI at Anwar’s school, then to VivoCity to do some grocery shopping with mum at Giant..
Wanted to spend it with another special person in my life..
In fact, I’ve already planned out something about a week ago for tis special day..
Oh well, perhaps in 4 years time..

2008-02-29T12:28:00.000+08:00

The essence of a relationship..
The sacred trust..
Has been shattered..

All the laughter in the world..
Couldn’t fill the void in my heart..

2008-02-27T00:16:00.001+08:00

My V Day roses..
Wilted..
Lifeless..

Jus disposed of it minutess ago..
But the love, will continue to bloom..
Like the words I received on tat day..

Dear Sweetheart

My love for you is here to stay
My thoughts are with you night and day.
Our loving hearts entwined together
Bringing true love that will last forever.

I love you.

P.S. I love u too..

2008-02-22T03:30:00.000+08:00

GIS module is totally making me go crazy..
I’m still doing one of the assignment at tis hour..
An assignment which is due at 6pm later today..
And I’m still cracking my brain for answers..

Recess week coming up..
But it’s not as exciting as it sounds..
To me..
A break from lectures and tutorials for a week..
Dun need to wake up early and rush to class..
Tat sounds great..
But meetings, projects, assignments, readings..
I tink I’d rather sit in for lectures..

And I’ve been coughing like non-stop ever since I got back from school..
Thanx to the sour skittles I guess..

Back to GIS..
Ggrrr...

2008-02-20T16:41:00.000+08:00

Woke up tis morning with a jolt..
Dreamt tat it was monsters from outer space, trying to eat me alive, and making strange buzzing sounds while they did..
But then it turned out to be my alarm clock..
Ok, lame..

My body temperature shot up again..
Had to skip school today..
My head was spinning as I walked to the toilet to shower..
But I forced myself..
Felt so weak when I stood under the water..
Can’t stand it anymore, like literally can’t stand..
So closed the tap and get dressed, and went back to bed..
Granny was asking me so many questions, but I didn’t have the energy to shout back the answers to her..
When she came in again, I suppose to ask me more question, I heard her say..
“Lah, dah mandi pun bole tido balik budak nie”
I deliberately close my eyes so she won’t ask me more qns..
Haha..

And I finally get to watch the movie, P.S. I Love You..
Watched it with my dear yesterday evening..
15 minutes into the show, I could actually hear some sniffing noise coming from the person sitting next to me..
The whole row was empty, so it wasn’t tat difficult to guess where those sniffing noise came from..
Hehe..

Despite whatever negative comments some people have about the movie, I tink it is a good movie..
Call me mushy, sappy or whatever there is..
Like as if I care..

But I tink it’ll be a much better movie if the main character was someone else..
Not tat I dun like Hilary Swank or don’t believe in her acting ability, she’s got a few Oscars after all..
On the whole, I enjoyed the movie..

P.S. I Love You

2008-02-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

Are we not supposed to drink coffee right after medication?
I’m feeling kind of worse than before I took the syrup and the pill..

My head is like being squeezed by 2 Goliath’s hands..
My chest feels tight..
My stomach has got this weird sensation..
And goosebumps all over my body..

I shall not drink coffee after taking medicines..
Irregardless of whether my condition now is due to the coffee, or not..

2008-02-18T21:16:00.002+08:00

I was on my way home from Queensway with my younger brother..
When my phone rang, and it was a call from Ayu..
With a worried-shaky kind of voice, she told me my brother fell down his bike..
I went like, “WHAT!?! SO WHERE’S HE NOW? IS HE OK? IS HE BADLY INJURED ? BLAH BLAH BLAH”

I was bluhdy worried la..
Then she said he’s got a few deep cuts, abrasions here and there and his right leg couldn’t move..
Tat instance, I saw a cab coming towards me and immediately hailed it without tinking..
Asked Ayu where he was, and head down right away to Pizza Hut Bukit Merah..

Make the cab driver wait for me while I go fetch him from the office..
Wanted to go hospital straight away but he said he’s fine..
Jus needed some cleaning so we decided to go to the clinic near our house..

Upon reaching the clinic, the service was so farked-tup la..
I opened the door for my brother, and it was so obvious he was in pain la..
Then I went over to the counter and said,
“I wanna register for my brother.”
They simply nod, and continue doing their work..
Didn’t even say hold on a minute..
I stood there for a whole 10 minutes, glancing at my bro from time to time, with him giving me the “im-in-bloody-pain-here-so-do-something” look..
Then asked my younger brother to check out if the other clinic is open, and it is, so we made our way there, without uttering a single word to them..

Then at the other clinic..
It was much worst la..
But we did manage to register without much wait..
Then the doctor came out and said something like tis..
“Young man, why are you here?”
My response to tat was “Duuhh”, which came out a bit too loud..
He glanced at me, then continue asking..
“Which doctor do you usually go to? What do you need here? I’m going off already lah”
Then I look at the operation hours, and it closes at 9pm on weekdays, and I said tat aloud..
Coz it was only about 7.45pm..
Then he went in and mumbled something, which I couldn’t hear..
His tone was so like really asking for a smack on his face la..
I was so mad already with the way he talked to us..
My brother, was already furious too..
Then he stood up, shouted “CANCEL MINE AH” and walked away..

The services here are so farked-tup!!
I’ve never use such words before..
But they’re practically asking for us to holler it out right at their face..

The most important thing now is tat my brother is fine..
Alhamdulilah..

I bought a pair of skinny jeans for my younger brother jus now..
And he really look like a “matrep” in it..
Which is wat i have been calling him ever since i made the payment for it..

And at tis very moment, I’m feeling so sleepy..
Probably coz I jus ate the medicines i got from school's clinic jus now..
Guzzled down my cough syrup and unwillingly stuffed the flu pill down my troat, which I know is like very small..
But I’ve got to stay awake..
Econs tutorial tmr, and I have to prepare for it..

“Mum! Can I have a cup of coffee..”

Toodles..

2008-02-17T22:56:00.002+08:00

Why can't people jus stop bothering with my life..
GOD!!
I dun understand wat's there to be so envious about my life!

Get a life..
Ur own life..
And stop messing with mine..

2008-02-17T22:22:00.002+08:00

Tis is one of the most boring weekend for me..
Was down with a fever on Friday nite..
First temperature check was 37.7°C..
Second one was 38.6°C..
And my whole body was burning..

As a result, did nothing over the weekend..
Wanted to catch up on some readings, but my head simply refuse to cooperate..
So lied down with the excruciating pain all day long..
Watching dvds..

Movie marathon..
Haven’t been doing tat for quite some time..
First movie was The Butterfly Effect..
Followed by Prince and Me 1 & 2..
Clueless..
Day After Tomorrow..
And finally Nana Tanjung 2.

Hope my fever will get better by tonite..
But I dunno..
After receiving a message..
One which i totally did not expect to receive anymore..
My temperature could just escalate again..

2008-02-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

One fine morning..
Along a road-side, somewhere in Buona Vista..

All the best..

2008-02-14T08:12:00.000+08:00

26 more hours to go!!!

Relax ar Nisah!!

2008-02-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

My lovely Saturday..
Started with a very late lunch @ Arab Street..
The meal was very pricey and the quantity was so little..

From the pictures below, it's so obvious which is mine and which is his meal..

Then we made our way to Terminal 3..

And finally to National Museum..
To enjoy the nite breeze..

The Malay Marriage Mess

2008-02-08T22:32:00.001+08:00

Someone sent me this email..
So i'm sharing it with everyone..

The Malay Marriage Mess
3 Main Reasons Why Malay Couples Are Doomed From the Start
In my first year of secondary school, a teacher made a very racist comment that I will never forget. Stepping into class one morning, he asked:“Boys, do you know what's the difference between a Chinese lady, an Indian lady and a Malay lady?”
The whole class looked at each other, puzzled beyond comprehension. What has this got to do with Geography? The teacher looked around for a minute or two, anticipating a glimpse of anyone who might put up his hand. But none did so he went on,
“Well boys, listen carefully. A Chinese lady, will not care if her man is handsome or does not have a good character. As long as he has money.
An Indian lady, will not care if her man is handsome or has no money. As long as he has good character.
A Malay lady, will not care if her man has no money or character. As long as he is handsome.”
In Victoria, the Malay student population then was comparatively small, especially so in my class. All four of us Malay boys looked at each other nervously after that short remark, shrugged it off and just got back towork. We didn't bother to protest because the teacher's known to skilfullyrepel any opposition to his words. He's after all, a grand old man of 65 at that time.
The teacher has since passed on. But his words linger in my mind to this very day. Not because they were extremely racist, but because till now I still wonder if there just might be some element of truth to what he said 13 years ago.
Could my teacher's short parable be the answer as to why so many of our Malay marriages are doomed right from the start? Well, I wouldn't know. I may be Malay but I'm no woman. Only they have the answer to that.
What I do know is that the Malay matrimonial scene is in a wreck. Percentage wise, we have the highest divorce rate here in Singapore – yetanother notorious title. If you have four Malay wedding invitations on anygiven Sunday, you can be sure that one of them will end in a divorce. It is that bad.
So what is it that Malay couples are doing wrong that other races are getting right? Is it because of the lack of religion knowledge, like so many of these 'Ustazs' are claiming? If the answer lies in appreciating Islam, why then are non-Muslim couples fairing better than us?
The answer is more universal and less cryptic. Malay Marriage Mess is happening due to these 3 main reasons.
Standards Set By Malay Women
I will most probably come under heavy fire for this, but I will say itanyway. One of the reasons why our marriages fail is that most Malay women fall in love way too easily.
Although I would disagree with my late teacher about the “as-long-as-he's-handsome” part, I do admit that most Malay women will develop a liking for a guy as long as she finds him “nice”.
The process in which a Malay woman falls in love is noticeably less complicated than that of other races and is due mainly to our culture. Malays are generally brought up and trained to never look at a person'swealth or status as a measure of a man. We have been told since young that this is wrong and that a person should only be judged by how polite, religious and respectful he is towards his folks. That, according to our elders, is the key to happiness.
The cultural stigma remains till this very day. When a Malay girl brings home a guy to meet her parents, little is asked of his financial positionand education. The focus will be on how religious or polite he is. It does not matter very much if the guy has been an academic failure all his life or does not hold a very stable career. As long as he is “nice”.
This criteria would have been fine for choosing a wife. But the fact is, a husband – leader and main breadwinner, has to be chosen with a more stringent criteria other than just being religious or “nice”. Too many families have collapsed because of economically dysfunctional husbands whose salaries cannot keep up with the changing times. Being “nice” will not pay the bills nor tuition for the kids 15 years down the road.
Be like the weaver bird. The reason why male weaver birds are such strongagile creatures is because the females of the species demand a lot from themales. Before a female would agree to mate, she will demand to look at the nest which he has built. If the nest is not up to her standard, she wouldsimply fly off in search of another mating partner. As a result male weaver birds evolve strongly and are one of the most revered birds in the animal kingdom.
Similarly, Malay women must collectively set a much higher standard for their men. For when they do, the heat will be upon us to improve economically and socially. As a result, the entire community improves. It just takes that change of mindset.But for now, plenty of Malay men are still slacking and taking their future very lightly. Why bother? They know they will be able to find a wife one day anyway. All you need to be is just “nice”.
Short Courting Period
The issue of Malays marrying early is not an alien one. It has receivedspecial mention by a very concerned Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew quite some time back. The concept is actually very simple – young couples are simply not equipped to handle a family. Everyone understands that.
But I would like to zoom in on the definition of “marrying early” from another perspective – courting period.
Malay couples generally make the decision to get married very early on intothe relationship. Usually within a year of knowing each other, a commitmentwould have been made to start a family. I personally know of a friend whosegotten married to a man she's known for only eight months! Needless to say, that marriage is now on the rocks. I pray that they ride out the storm.
Once again, it's a cultural phenomenon. Malay elders frown on long courting periods and marriage is usually pressured upon once a man and woman is known to like each other. The derogatory term that they use for couples that have been long together without marrying is “pengantin basi” (stalenewly-weds). Having a “pengantin basi” in the family is considered to be a social embarrassment and should be avoided.
I am a strong believer in the concept that a person's true colours can only be seen either after 12 months or after a major quarrel – whichever comesearlier. Before this period, not everything you see is what you will get asinitial pretences will take a while to dismantle. There will probably never be any hard data to conclude this theory. But then again, life's most complicated concepts are usually built on none.
Malay couples must extend their courting time longer and get to know eachother better before making that big decision. This is essential to avoiding any bad surprises long after the wedding drums have fell silence. After all, “differences in personality” is cited as the number one reason whyMalay couples divorce. Perhaps they should have just waited that 12 months.
Financial Delinquency
I am not sure where it comes from, but it seems that more Malay women today are demanding that their men be driving cars.
Has it not occurred to them that everybody can drive a car today? It's justa matter of whether you want to or not ever since the $0 down payment rule was implemented. Any chap who can make the monthly payments will have the “luxury” of a vehicle in his hands – even someone who earns $800 a month sweeping the roads.
A car does not equate to being successful anymore. It just means that youare having a hefty debt . Unfortunately a lack of financial intelligence inthe Malay community has given rise to misconceptions such as these. Middle class symbols such as cars, cards and fancy electronic goods are now a must-have to show people that you “have arrived”. Most cannot wait to pay for it in cash, taking huge loans in the process.
Needless to say, this financial attitude has given rise to a host of social problems within the Malay community. According to a recent statistic fromMUIS, applicants for “zakat” (alms given by the public) this year has risendramatically – most of them coming from young males in their twenties. How are males like these supposed to raise happy and contented families?
The matter of fact is simple. You marry someone who is financiallydelinquent, you will bear the consequences. You insist on a man who drives, you build a family saddled with debt right from the start. Remember wellthat “money problems” has been cited as the second leading cause of divorce amongst Malays. The awareness of financial delinquency is essential to keeping our Malay families happy.
I am glad to say that all my university friends, despite commanding the salaries that they have, are still sticking to public transport or using car sharing services like those offered by NTUC when a vehicle is needed. It is better to be flush with cash rather than one who drives but counts every penny like a pauper. Perhaps this is the attitude that we need to emulate. Else it could just make us another digit in the divorce statistics.

A penny for ur thoughts??

2008-02-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

Watched a movie with Diana yesterday..
And tat was the first time I cried in a cinema..
Ok, not exactly cry, but more like tears welling up in my eyes..
A few drops did overflow, but to avoid from being seen, especially by that person sitting beside me and being mocked at later, I jus leave it and let it dry on its own..
It was dark anyway..
Haha..

The movie was based on a best-selling novel by Khaled Hosseini..
About friendship..
Between 2 boys growing up in Afghanistan..
But the bond between them broke because of Amir’s cowardice when he did nothing to stop his fren from being raped..

I always love reading novels about such issues ..
There’s so many issues in common with the books tat I’ve read..
Like stoning in public for adultery..
Soldiers raping a man’s wife (though in tis movie, he wasn’t successful)
Clashes among different groups..
But it’s totally different on pages and on screen..

And the beauty of the landscape..
Very stunning..
Breath-taking..
But I was told it was filmed in China, and not Kabul..
Which made me feel cheated..

Nevertheless, I’d say Kite Runner is definitely a must watch movie..

Thereafter, met Aishah and Hafiz at Plaza Singapura for dinner..
After walking past numerous food outlets, we decided on Swensen’s, which was actually our first suggestion, but the guy, who was the only guy among us, made us went all the way down to the basement and back up to Swensen's..

We had lots and lots and lots of laughter over dinner..
Since people say picture speaks a thousand words..
I’ll jus let the pictures do the talking..

Thanx Aishah for the gifts..

2008-02-03T00:57:00.000+08:00

I was browsing thru frenster, and reading one of the discussion topic in taufik batisah’s group profile..
The topic: Do you think Taufik has a galfren?

And one of the post was:
Heard for someone that he going to engagement what...he got a girlfriend..Her mum intro one nice girl to him...Then i think that gurl with him lah...I think onli...If u don't knw right...Just tell Taufiq batisah if he got a gf on his own mouth...

Couldn’t prevent myself from bursting with hilarity..
I din change any bit of it ok..
I simply copy and paste
*sighs*
I sympathize her English teacher..

2008-02-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

I haven’t been updating my blog for quite some time..
But I remember clearly tat my counter was definitely below a thousand..
And, it seems like I’ve been getting lots of clicks since then..
Didn’t know people were so “interested”..
Why the “...”??
I guess Diana will understand it jus by glancing at it..
Coz she’s super good at sarcasm..
Haha..
Dun get mad Diana, I’m speaking the truth.. Ahha..

School’s been rather hectic..
Hence the reason for not updating tis page here..
Reading’s starting to pile up, assignments practically being tossed over to us..
It’s crazy..
But’s its too boring to be discussed about..

Watched 27 Dresses just now..
I feel it’s more like a watch-it-with-ur-girlfriends kind of movie rather than ur partner..
The movie was somewhat predictable..
But nonetheless, it was a lovely romantic comedy..
Or maybe coz I love the main character, Katherine Heigl, from the TV series “Grey’s Anatomy”
So tat’s why I kind of enjoyed the movie..
She’s one of those actresses who can be gorgeous and funny at the same time..

Oh, and one of my fren told me tat she watched Season 5 of One Tree Hill online..
And tat very night, Tuesday nite to be more exact, I watched all the four episodes tat has been uploaded..
Told myself to watch only 2 episodes max, since I’ve got a morning class on Wednesday..
But jus couldn’t stop myself..
As a result of tat, almost dozed of during tat Wed morning lecture..
Oh wait, I tink I did.. ahha..
Jus hurry up and finish the whole season on TV, and release the DVD..
I’m definitely gonna get the DVD when it’s out..
And watch it all over again..
I so love One Tree Hill..

2008-01-25T02:29:00.000+08:00

Minutes ago..
I was blogging about how I’m feeling so disregarded..
Jus as I clicked on the full stop button..
My phone rang!!

So, I highlighted the whole paragraph..
And pressed another button..
“Del”

I Love You Honey..

I know u’re working hard..
I really appreciate wat u’re doing..
I know I’ll be contradicting myself when I say tis..
But I really love it when u’re busy..

Hehe..

I’m so dead beat..
9 more weeks of classes..
Oh, and I’ve finally secured a module..
Even though I’ve yet to get a tutorial slot for it..
But all requirements met..
And I’ve already filed for graduation!!

2008-01-20T13:59:00.000+08:00

I’m so freaking stressed up now..
Did the GAPs exercise last nite and I realized that I took a wrong module..
The worst thing is tat if I dun get to change to another module which is outside my major, I might not be able to graduate tis semester..
And this is the reason tat has multiplied my level of stress exponentially..
Sent out an appeal last nite itself, and will go to the fass office to do whatever tat is required..
Even if it means traveling back and forth from one faculty to another..
I jus want tis to be settled so I can gear myself up for this new semester..

Was reading an article in the Malay paper, and was instantly reminded of yesterday’s incident..
A stereotype towards the Malay community..
Jus because the social problem is very prevalent in the Malay community, it doesn’t mean everyone tat belongs to it is as such..
I was at the Career Fair at Suntec yesterday evening..
My intention wasn’t looking for a career for myself..
But to just look around and collect the free gifts and souvenirs they have there..
And true enuf, I brought home 2 keychains from SCDF, a lanyard from SPF, a table calendar from ComfortDelgro and a countless pens..
Ok, back to my point..
We went to this booth, and the first thing tat came out from the lady’s mouth was,
“We’re only open for Bachelor’s or Master’s holders”
And it was full of sarcasm..
That was worthy of a few four-letter words..
But I’m not the kind of person who would holler crude vocabularies..
So I jus left the booth without uttering a single word..
Ad not forgetting rolling my eyes at her..
Such narrow-mindedness..

2008-01-20T00:26:00.000+08:00

Thank you for the pleasant evening..

I’m now somewhat tired..
But somehow, I feel like doing some reading..
Revising on the lectures, though lectures just began like this week..
I dunno why, but I jus feel like I should and I want to get good grades..
After sitting for the first lecture for all my modules, I somehow feel like it’s not tat impossible to attain an A for all the modules I’m taking tis semester..
Perhaps coz it’s my final semester, or rather I hope it is, thus the reason why I feel like I should give my very best..
If only I feel as such since the first semester in school, maybe my CAPs could be as high as 4.5..
Ok, tat’s a bit too much maybe..but then again, it’s not impossible..
So my target tis sem shall be As..
Even though some of the lectures are difficult to follow..

The lecturer for my Econs module..
This is how she speaks:

Economicgrowthissoimportantbecauseofthevastdifferencesinlivingstandardsbetweentherichandpoorcountriesintheworld. Understandingwhysomecountrieshavegrownsofastwhileothershavestagnatedisprobablythemostimportantquestionindevelopmenteconomicstoday. AlleyesarenowonChina’smagicaleconomicgrowthratesandbythatitisputinthefirstleagueeconomicperformance. However,China’seconomictransformationistheresultofadevelopmentdictatorship.

So, get my point?
If there’s a way to prove it, I guess I can prove tat she speaks faster than the speed of the MRT..

Then there’s tis one lecturer, for my Geog module..
He took almost an hour, simply put, talking rubbish before starting the lecture proper...

Another lecturer, for my Engineering module..
Doesn’t look like a professor at all..
I tink he can fit perfectly fine as a provision stall owner..
And I’m totally serious..
He really look like those Ah Peks with singlets and shorts in our neighbourhood..

So c’mon, pray for me..
Tat I can overcome all the obstacles tis semester and excel with great grades..
Hehe..

2008-01-15T23:21:00.001+08:00

My day ended great today..
Met up with Dearie for dinner after I’m done with school and tuition..
Went to Vivo City, yet again..
I’m actually kind of tired of tat place already..
But then again, it’s very well-located as it’s super close to my place..
And has got a lot of place to eat, shop or just chill out..

The initial plan was to catch a movie, Dan in Real Life..
But since we reached there quite late, so we just went shopping and dinner..
Though it’s not my kind of shopping, I still love it..
We spent a very long time in tis huge stationery store..
Shopping for his company’s stuffs..

Dinner was slightly different, as in we actually discussed about his company..
Made an outline for a programme..
But even so, he wasn’t really focussed..
Kept saying tat he couldn’t tink..
Coz I deviate his mind..
Wat an excuse..

But on the whole, I had a great time..
And I got chocolates..
I was kind of reluctant to get anything..
Coz I dun want him to waste his money on me..
But he insisted..
So I chose one with a reasonable price..
But he bought me 3 anyway..

And of course I love it..
I mean, I can’t resist is rite..
It’s CHOCOLATE!!
So anyway, I’m enjoying it rite now..
The rest of u guys, jus enjoy the picture..
~ Blueks ~

2008-01-14T11:39:00.001+08:00

11/01/08 – 13/01/08

A family get-together to celebrate birthdays for the January babies..

Happy Birthday to Cik Munir, Najwa, Kak Sidah, Andi and Nayli..

The surroundings was very conducive for the whole family to feel and be close to one another..
I had a great time..
I hope they do too..
Looking forward to the next gathering..

My comp is so lagging today..so more pictures will be posted in the next post..

Insya Allah, if i'm not lazy..

School starting tis week..
Looked at my workspace and it seems like a very busy schedule for me tis semester..
Have to switch the button 180degree from total slacking to hard slog immediately..

Hafiz's 23rd Birthday Dinner

2008-01-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

Last Friday, 040108, we went to Breeks at Marina Square to celebrate Hafiz's 23rd..

As usual, we had lots of laughters..

Hope you guys enjoyed urself..

Coz i had a great time tat nite..

After dinner, we hanged out at Esplanade's roof top..

And again, more laughters..

We bought the balloon thingy for the birthday boy..

And made him hold it up high all the time..

2008-01-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

Ok, I’ve finally watched National Treasure: Book of Secrets..
A smart, engaging action packed movie with a little adventure through American history..
I always love movies or tv series by producer Jerry Bruckheimer..
Not mere entertaining, but also intriguing..
Figuring out puzzles and overcoming every hurdle along the journey tat lays in front of them..
Pretty cool to watch..

And dinner was nice..
Earle Swensen’s @ Vivo City..
Ok, I know I spoilt it..
It would have been superb if not for my attitude..
I know..
I’m sorry..
But I jus dun like it when u keep on asking me tat kind of questions over and over again..
When I say I dun want, I really mean it..
So if u want them, jus get it..
And especially when u keep on asking with the waitress waiting at the side of our table..
I super hate it alright..
So please, dun do it again..
But then again, I’m not the only cause that ruined the dinner..
The main dish, Chicken Baked Rice doesn’t taste as good as we expected it to be..
But the ambiance is great..
So next time, if there is a next time, I definitely am going to order something else..

Tomorrow is the start of a new semester for my Besties..
Namely Diana, my ever dearest bestie, and Hafiz, my dear bestie..
Have a great semester people..
I still have got ONE more week of break before the ever infuriating, maddening, frustrating, tormenting semester begin in my forever difficult, grueling, arduous, demanding, daunting and exigent school..
But then again, I have only ONE more semester left..
I hope..

Alright..
Have fun in school..
For this semester..
And the coming semesters ahead of you guys..
Ahha..

2008-01-06T02:12:00.000+08:00

After hours of waiting..
This is wat I get?!?

I dun even know wat words to use to describe the conversation..

Man, this suck..

Ok, maybe I am partly at fault..
To some extent..
But at the very least, I did make an effort..

To start it off right..

Bleah

2008-01-03T15:46:00.000+08:00

It only the beginning of the new year and I’m already feeling the frustration of school..
This module bidding can drive even the most uncomplaining, patient and tolerant person to madness..

2008-01-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

2007
Ended with a somewat romantic moment tat din really go as planned..
But the efforts put into it made the moment memorable..

As we usher in the new year..
Issues, resolutions, predictions were reflected..
And new ones were made..

May all those things that we wish for this year can be achieved..
My new year resolutions??
Well, I prefer to jus keep it to myself..
*blueks*

2007-12-29T00:30:00.000+08:00

Went to cousin’s place in the evening jus now with family..
Getting married tmr..
The decorations look grand..

She’s a year younger than me..
And already a married woman tmr..
Another cuzzie who’s also a year younger than me is also engaged..
I wonder wat’s the hurry..

Anyway, watched The Heartbreak Kid..
It was funny..
But not hilarious..
The trailer only has got the best snippets of the movie..
Feel so cheated..
But it was fun..

And the wife is really irritating..
Singing along with the radio..
If I was driving and the person sitting beside me were to behave in tat manner..
I guess I’ll kick her off my car..

2007-12-27T15:10:00.000+08:00

I wonder how people can change so abruptly..
Life’s good for you..
And u be evil to others..
Humans..

I dun tink any of what u said were true..
Those words seem to come out from another person..
Someone totally different from the person I used to know..

How could you..
Those words were so painful it hurts more than being stabbed by a dagger..

But u know..
I can’t be bothered with you anymore..
I tried to be nice..
And tat’s how u treat me..
If I were to go down to ur level, I would have called you a Jerk..
I guess tat’s the best word tat can describe a person like you..
The current you..

Jus be happy with ur other half..
Sincerely from my heart..
Despite ur dreadful vocabulary..

2007-12-26T13:55:00.000+08:00

Watched I am Legend..
Awesome movie..
Visualize yourself being alone in the country..
Tink I can go crazy..
Like him, begging a mannequin to say hello to him..
Only thing I dun really understanding was tat where did all those hideous looking creatures came from..
I presume they were infected by the deadly disease..
Probably wasn’t really concentrating when they talked abt tat part..
Tat usually happens..
When the movie is too long..
My mind tend to sway away from it..

Alright..
Next will be…

National Treasure: Book of Secrets
Or maybe Good Luck Chuck

Received another call again jus now..
Enquiring about tuition..
when i first started giving tuition..
It used to be me looking for them..
now it's the other way round..
if i'm taking all of them who called, i'll be super busy..
and super tired..
i suppose it's good tat my current tutees' parents recommend me to their frens..
which means my current tutees are doing well..
and tat's the best thing i can ever wish for from them..
and i hope i can continue assisting my tutees to greater heights..

2007-12-24T15:30:00.000+08:00

I noticed something..
I like to pose for a picture behind the car..
Which is rather amusing..Coz people usually pose in front of the car..

The first picture was taken during the KL trip in July..
And the second one was during the recent KL trip..

And we always go to KL..
And this recent trip was my suggestion..
Can’t help it..
It’s the nearest and inexpensive place to shop..

But actually my main purpose was to buy One Tree Hill Season 4..
Which I finish watching it within 3 days..
And when I was watching it..
My little brother watched it too..
And he’s hooked to it..so is my cousin..
And now, he start watching it from Season 1..
Which means another round of One Tree Hill for me..
Haha..
And I’m so loving it..

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2007-12-23T16:26:00.000+08:00

It was all shouting and cheering yesterday..
Not me..
The participants and audiences at Ngee Ann Convention Centre..
Went for the dikir barat competition, Piala Khatulistiwa..
Coz my Dearie is one of those who took part..
He was the “awok-awok”..
Or whatever they call it..

The performances were great..
The audiences were not..
In fact, personally, I think they were rude..
Extremely bad-mannered..
Yes it is a dikir comp, but that doesn’t mean u can holler out remarks any time you want..
And not merely normal comments..
Nasty comments were directed towards the participants at times..
And tat’s really rude..

And when results were announced..
Yes, I do understand the winning team were extremely happy..
But tat doesn’t give them a reason to celebrate like as if no ones there..
I can say almost 99% of the people there are Malays..
So have some respect for tat la..
And have some respect for the guest of honour..
I could see the change in his face when he saw how they celebrated their win..
From a smile to a grimace..
How could he not..
Girls and guys were hugging each other, jumping like mad..
Guys carrying their team mates as they run down the sidewalks..
Part of me was hoping they all fell down the flight of stairs..

It was a great effort on the organizers side..
But the audiences spoilt it somehow..
They should be given a lesson on social etiquette..
Though it’s very much common sense actually..

Even so, tat doesn’t spoil my mood for the rest of the evening..
And I’m so glad it didn’t..
After the whole thing, went for dinner with Dearie and Anwar..
And after so long, I realized something..
He will, without fail, feed me first whatever tat he’s having..
No matter how hungry he is..
Like yesterday, when he haven’t had anything to eat since morning..
He still gave me the first scoop of his meal..

Tat’s sweet actually..
Very sweet..
But on the other side, it could be tat he always gives me the first bite to see if the food’s raw or doesn’t taste nice or if it’s poison or not..
And if I suddenly drop dead after the first bite, he’s safe..
Haha..
Wat a thought..
I was kidding k dear..
I know u wouldn’t do tat to me..
And I love the fact tat u always give me the first bite..
Like I say..
It’s very sweet..
Though I always never do the same to him with my meal..
And especially when I’m hungry..

And after dinner, we left Anwar on the street..
No, we’re not evil..
Dad said he’ll come and fetch him home..
And it’s only about 8pm..
And I still haven’t feel like leaving Dearie yet..
So we left him there to wait for dad and made our way..
…….
….

I received 2 calls yesterday..
Which kind of surprised me..
They were enquiring about my tuition service..
Apparently, my tutee’s parent gave my number to his colleagues..
And recommended me to them..
Humph, gave out my number without my permission..
But when the caller said, my fren recommend you to me coz he said u very good..
Haha..
Tat really brought a smile to my face…
But I haven’t confirm anything with them..
Coz they’re staying in Toa Payoh..
So, I said, I’ll tink about it..

Ok..
I tink I’ve blabbered too much already..
Time for me to catch up on all the movies tat I’ve missed..
Which has been conveniently burned to dvd..
Enjoy the rest of this lovely day people..

2007-12-20T08:01:00.000+08:00

My brother’s still not home yet..
He went for a fren’s chalet, and didn’t inform any of us tat he’s gonna stay out..
And while he’s out there could not be reached by phone..
I’m the one here who gets the continuous nagging..
Tat’s so unjust..
And I had to call a number of his frens so early in the morning..
Some even answered with their sexy-jus-get-out-of-bed tone of voice..
Even though it’s way past Subuh..
Guess I did dragged them out of bed..

Yes, I’m kind of worried as hell now..
But managed to get in touch with one of his friend, and told me he’s at the chalet..
But at this moment, he went out for a while..
And his hp is in his bag..
Well, at least I’m not so worried now..

2007-12-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

I jus found out something
Which is rather amusing
A primary school classmate of mine is currently dating my primary school classmate..
Alright, both of them were my classmates back in primary school..
There’s nothing out of the ordinary or amusing about it actually..
Jus tat, back then..
They used to fight a lot..
As far as I can reminisce, they can’t stand each other..
Any closer than 10 meters, they’ll start bickering at each other..
Backbiting each other..
And now they’re together..
The power of love..
Haha..

And another one of my classmate from primary school too..
Who got engaged middle of this year..
Jus broke off..
Hopes she’ll be able to move on with life..
Coz the last time I chatted with her..
She was all crazy over him..
There’s someone out there better for you girl..

2007-12-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

Lovely dinner..
With dearly loved frens..

Asal my face blur, and diana's not..
hmmph..
tak puas hati nie..

2007-12-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

To the anonymous person who gave me a comment for one of my post..
Whoever you may be..
Thank you so much..

Thank you for the 3 words..

Patience
Focus
God

Those 3 words helped me get thru that difficult time..
Which has now been solved..
And an issue of the past..

I always had those 3 words in my mind..
But I ranked it the other way round..

I put God as my number 1..
Always has been..and always will be..
With the peace of mind after seeking strength from Him..
Then only I was able to Focus more..
Put the problem aside and concentrate..
And finally Patience..
If it’s meant for you, it’ll be..

Once again..
Thank you Mr/Ms/Mdm Anonymous

2007-12-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

Sat for my third paper jus now, out of 4 exams tat I have this sem..
Dreadfully difficult..
Not jus the one just now..
All the 3 papers that I have sat for..

Bleah..

But I did try my very best though..
Squeezed my brain..
For every piece of info in there..

Paper ended in the evening jus now, so went home straight..
For most of my frens, it was their last paper jus now..
And they were hooraying as they walked out the hall..
Purposely make me jealous..

But the one thing tat really made my heart pain..
Was this group of Chinese girls..
4 of them..
After the paper..
On my way home..
I was walking at the overhead bridge that’s over the AYE
And they were few steps in front of me..
Talking very loudly..
About what movie to watch later at VivoCity..
Then..
Suddenly stopped in the middle of the bridge..
Faced the road..
And shouted..
“Yeay!! Exams over!!”

Imagine how I felt!!

It’s ok..
Few more days only..

And revision without Dearie here is actually not tat bad..
Ahha..
He’ll usually, with his stubborn, obstinate, mulish and adamant head, will wait till I finish studying, then only he’ll go to bed..

And I dun like that..
Especially when he have to get up early to work the next day..
But no worries for tat tis week..
He’s somewhere far holidaying with his family..
Have fun Dearie..

Now, 1 more paper to concentrate on..

And I officially have only ONE more semester to endure..

2007-11-27T00:06:00.001+08:00

I love u more than my own life
Prove it

I do not have anyone else but u
Prove it

I swear that I love only u
Prove it

I have only one love
Prove it

I’m going crazy
I really need to focus
These things are driving me crazy

2007-11-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

Woke up at about 11plus tis morning..
So, no breakfast..
Was rushing out after tat..
So, no lunch..
Haven’t had dinner up till tis hour..
Grabbed a couple of my favourite Famous Amos cookies, and surprisingly, manage to nibble down a piece only..
Jus couldn’t find the appetite to eat..

God, give me strength..
I need it at tis crucial period..
Final Year..
I can’t afford to not make the grade..

2007-11-26T20:01:00.000+08:00

Each time I think about us
My tears will never stop flowing
I’ve never imagined it to turn out this way
Coz I never want it to happen
But what can I do
You want it tat way

No matter what it is
You will always be in my prayers
Jus like how u’ve always been all these while

I don’t understand why
I really don’t
Things always happen when I’m at my busiest
Is it because I neglected you way too much?
I’m sorry if I do

I don’t know what I should do now

But no matter what I do
It’ll only be futile
Since u’ve made ur choice
I believe in fate
In destiny
If we’re meant to be together
We will be

I promise I’ll return all the things u’ve given me
Thanx for letting me enjoy it even though it’s jus for a short while
Thanx for letting me share my dreams with you

My dreams with you
Yes
Jus like wat the word mean
Imaginative thoughts humans indulged in

My dreams
Our dreams together
Will jus remain a dream

2007-11-25T21:46:00.000+08:00

Oh No!!

I'm hooked to YouTube..
Now i so can't wait for exams to be over..

2 more weeks of hardwork..
I can do it..

2007-11-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

My new desktop background..
Such an eyeful to look at..

2007-11-23T02:06:00.000+08:00

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2007-11-22T22:59:00.001+08:00

Great..
Everyone’s through with their exams..
Everyone except me..
Ok, I’m exaggerating..
Not people from school la..
But people I know, like my best fren, my good fren, my fren..
Argh..
I hate times like this..
When people get to enjoy and I don’t..
I wanna relax too!!!
Never mind..
I’ll get my fair share soon..

Shall not get distracted with the thought that the rest are already enjoying themselves..
I can do it!!!

2007-11-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

They made me treat them to a movie, The Game Plan..
Jus because i made them wait for me for about 30minutes..
My way of paying back..
Bought them some Sushi..
Put lots of wasabi and made them eat it..
Captured some moments when they were about to eat it..
Too bad din get to capture after they ate it..
Coz they went wild after a few chews..

The little imp....

And...

His accomplice..

2007-11-20T15:01:00.000+08:00

These are the sweetest words anyone has ever said to me..

U r the only one that has captivated my heart
U opened many doors to my life
U r the only 1 for me to spend the rest of my life with

I Love You..

ANd dun stop those sweet words from reaching my ear..
;p

2007-11-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

When i look at this picture then only i realised that my notice board is so messy!!
Anyway, tat's me tis afternoon before going out to school..

Jus now, at Vivo with the little imp and his accomplice, while we were walking towards the escalator, we heard a loud “Aargh!!”
We hurried over, not coz we were being ‘kepo’, but we were in the first place walking towards it..
An old lady just fell down the steps..
Her head was bleeding profusely..
Yes, profusely..
Hmm, a word tat I always asked my tutees to use..hehe..
But, seriously, the blood almost like gushed out the left side of her head..
Lots of drips on the floor..
I could feel the excruciating pain she is suffering inside..
Almost cried..
But the little imp and his accomplice always spoil the mood..

Did lots of photocopying in school jus now..
Thanx to the little imp and his accomplice, we manage to finish it faster..
Now all the piles of reading are within reach, I’m all set to face this ultimate battle..
For this semester..

Then there’ll be only ONE more semester left!!!

HoOoOrAaAayY..

2007-11-17T03:53:00.000+08:00

It's been so long!!
Have been way way waayyyyyyy too busy..
With projects and assignments..
Even though no more tuitions after school, i still feel as tired as then..
Like no difference..
but at least, i get to go home straight after school..
sometimes..

And jus now was one of those days..
and i so miss my afternoon naps..
Used to get tat alot during pre-U days..
So jus now, i finally get to enjoy my afternoon nap..
It feels so good..
despite the drilling noise from downstairs..
the final project floating around in my head..
and especially the hullabaloo from my ever irritating brother..
which by the way, the person who captured tat image below..
can never get a peaceful nap with him around..

One more project to go..
After the submission tis monday, i'll then get to concentrate fully for exams..
I so can't wait for this semester to be over..
It's like Hell on Earth..
*screams in silence*

2007-10-31T00:48:00.000+08:00

I'm so fed up with blogspot..
Been trying to upload some pics from jus now, but still can't do it..
Argh..
Give up..

2007-10-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

Tis page her has been abandoned for too long now..
There's so many that i wanna write about, but none seems to be in my mind now..
Tis week is so hectic..
And today was so tiring for me..
Spent the whole day in school, finishing up projects..
Deadlines to meet..
Assignments, projects, test, and exams!!
Can't wait for all of it to be over..
I'm so tired already..

And i'm so in need of sleep..
And to whoever that it may concern, at these kind of period, all i'm asking for is a bit of understanding..
Thank you..

2007-10-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, make me among those who love Your friends, and hate Your enemies, following the way of Your last Prophet, O the Guardian of the hearts of the Prophets.

2007-10-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

Finally, I feel a bit relax after a whole week of craziness over deadlines and tests..
I think I did good for my Geog test..
But i'll be satisfied with watever the results is, coz i know i've tried my very best..

Went to VivoCity with Ijam jus now..
Coz we had an appointment with a lady..
And it's at Coffee Bean at 8.30pm..
So after Maghrib, we made our way there..
While waiting for the lady to arrive, we attacked the brownie..
Which is so heavenly delicious..
And as usual, joke around and took the silly-est pictures i ever had..

We put chocolate fudge on our teeth and did "cchhheeesssseeee"

Aniway, been very very busy preparing for the tests that I din have time to put up the daily doas for Ramadhan..Here's for the 23th of the month..

O Allah, on this day, wash away my sins, purify me from all flaws, examine my heart with (for) the piety of the hearts, O One who overlooks the shortcomings of the sinners.

2007-10-01T12:14:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, multiply for me its blessings, and ease my path towards its bounties, do not deprive me of the acceptance of its good deeds, O the Guide towards the clear truth.

I just found out yesterday that my ex-classmates bumped someone I dun wanna see for the rest of my life..
Lucky I din follow them, coz they were persuading me to go for almost a week..
And she actually hang out with them for a while..
Of course they don't know the issue between me and her..
But just imagine the discomfort if i was there..
Suck..
I don't know if they've invited her for the Jalan Raya..
I don't care actually, coz i'm not goin..

2007-09-30T01:53:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I choose to fight

Life's too short
And there's no time to waste on giving up
So I choose to fight

And sometimes
I need you to give me the courage and strength to go on

Ok, I dun know wat nonsense i'm writing..
I'm jus so bloody stress with all the work load..
Urgh!!

2007-09-30T01:50:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, awaken me with the blessings of its early mornings, Illuminate my heart with the brightness of its rays, let every part of my body follow its effects, by Your light, O the illuminator of the hearts of those who know.

2007-09-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, guide me towards righteous actions, fulfil my needs and hopes, O One who does not need explanations nor questions, O One who knows what is in the chests of the (people of the) world. Bless Muhammad and his family, the Pure.

Spent almost the whole day in school yesterday despite recess week..
It's more of like a catching-up wwek rather than recess week..
Done with my second GIS lab work yesterday..
3 more lab assignments to go..
Already going crazy after doing the first 2..
This is wat i did..
Yes, it look easy to do..
Similar to those we see in textbooks..
But try doing it first then judge the difficulty..
Have to include the different data sets and map elements..
Troublesome..
Now left with the report and completing the questions and i'm done with it..

Meeting Fiza and Diyana tomorrow to gather materials for our project..

Hope it'll be fun..

2007-09-28T05:26:00.000+08:00

Recess week is almost over, but i still have a lot of work to do..
1 more lab report to be done, a physics essay, and a geog essay, both 5-7 pages long, all need to be submitted next week..
And on top of that, have to study for 2 test coming up next week..

Gonna have 2 project meetings in school later during the day..
And i haven't even had a wink of sleep..
Wanted to stop everything tat i was doing jus now, surrender for the night, and continue the next day..
but looking at the number of days i have left before school starts, i changed my mind..
went to make a cup of coffee instead..

Saw Anwar's exam timetable which he put up on our mini-notice board, and saw these words..
which kind of motivates me..

"Success comes from both intelligence and persistent diligence"

But still, to conclude all these..
I am currently super duper stressed out..
So if u wanna mess with me, jus be prepared for the consequences..

2007-09-28T05:25:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, grant me compatability with the good, keep me away from patching up with the evil, lead me in it, by Your mercy, to the permanent abode, by Your Godship, O the God of the worlds.

2007-09-27T14:57:00.000+08:00

Why?
Why do people feel the pain of losing someone only when they’ve lost that someone..
Or on the verge of losing tat someone..
But when that someone’s back..
They take things for granted..

One part of me just wants to tell you everything
One part just needs the quiet

It takes time for a broken heart to mend

2007-09-27T01:58:00.000+08:00

I don't know why
So don’t ask me why
You know that I'm just the kind of girl that feels so hurt and smiles

You don't even know a thing I feel inside
By the look in my eye
That I'm just fine
But the actual fact is that
I might need you
To hold me tight

2007-09-27T01:41:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, grant me the obedience of the humble expand my chest through the repentance of the humble, by Your security, O the shelter of the fearful.

2007-09-26T20:20:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, do not condemn me for slips, make me decrease mistakes and errors, do not make me a target for afflictions and troubles, by Your honor, O the honor of the Muslims.

2007-09-26T02:48:00.000+08:00

I've tis hidden craze with One Tree Hill..
and i'm so in love with that song..
"What hurts the most" by Rascal Flatts..
It makes me feel better..
but at the same time it made me cry..
haiz..
strange, but true..

2007-09-25T19:42:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, purify me from uncleanliness and dirt, make me patient over events that are decreed, grant me the ability to be pious, and keep company with the good, by Your help, O the beloved of the destitute.

2007-09-24T12:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired and sleepy..
Din sleep at all last nite..
Was busy being with a fren who's having a prob with his guy..
it goes like tis..

She wanted to check a fren from school..
on frenster, with email address ***_*******@ hotmail.com, but instead, she wrongly typed the first 3 letters, and also instead of hotmail, she typed yahoo.com.sg..
Tat's a lot of mistakes..
but probably, tat's wat god wanna show in this holy month of ramadhan..
So she browsed through the profile and right at the end, she saw tis girl's edited pic with like a quarter of her boyfriend's face beside her..

from tat moment onwards, her mind went blank..she din know wat to do..
I told her to sleep, get some rest and deal with it tomorrow morning..
she tried, but she can't..
so i told her maybe she could study..
she took out her readings, but jus stare at it..
for the first time, she din know how to start..
and so i told her, maybe she could read a story book..
she took it out, but kept repeating the same sentence over and over again..
coz she forget wat she read..
I had no more ideas to suggest..
so i jus kept quiet and accompanied her..
when asked wat's she doing, she said she's jus sitting on her chair, staring blankly into the space..
i dunno wat to say, so jus kept quiet with her..
at times, she will break down..without being able to control it, tears flowed down her cheeks..
Tat's the most difficult part, coz i really dun know wat to do..

so i told her, if he loves u, he won't do anything to hurt her..
probably tat's a mistake on his side, taking pics so close with another person to tat extent..
but if he really loves her, he will admit tat and try to get her back, no matter wat it takes..
he'll do anything to make sure tat he'll live the rest of his life with her..

so she msged the guy..
first reply was, he's sleeping and told her to jus msg him..
wat does tat mean?
why must she jus msg him, why can't she jus call him and settle it directly..
probably he's outside, so he does not want her to hear the noisy background..
then after telling him wat she saw, she told him to leave her alone..
probably tat's a mistake on her side..
asking to be left alone..
but she was angry...nobody can blame her..
everyone asked to be left alone when they're mad..
but in actual fact, tat's the time when they really need someone to be there with them the most..
to assure them tat everything's gonna be fine..
even though when approached, they'll back off..
and they started replying to each other..
one of his msg was like, if u want to belah, jus do so..
ok, wat kind of word is tat? "belah"?
u dun say tat to ur girlfriend..
she din say she want to break up with him..
but tat was his response..
so maybe, he really has already start planning to leave her..

then he said his life's a mess now, alone and wanted to commit suicide to end it all..
and tat makes me tink..
I told her, she wouldn't want to live her life with someone like tat..
Thinking of commiting suicide at the slightest problem..
end it there,and let others settle his problem..
only cowards do tat..
i told her again, if he really love her deeply, he'll fight to stay with her..
he'll do anything to be with her..
by giving up, it jus shows tat he dun love her deep enough, or maybe he is guilty, and not brave enough to face the truth..
I told her, if they are meant to be toghether, no matter wat happens, they will end up together eventually..

I hope she's doing fine now..
as for me, i've cancelled my 2 tuitions today..
changed it to another day..
I dun tink it's fair for them even if i go..
coz i'm very very sleepy, and i dun wanna fall asleep in front of them while waiting for them to finish their work..
but at the same time, i can't get any sleep..
I'm going out with her, to somewhere quiet..
so jus sit with her and stare into the space together..
i know tat's wat she's gonna do..

2007-09-24T00:35:00.000+08:00

Am i stupid?

Or..
am i stupid?

I just feel like running away from all these..
and see what happens next..
maybe tat's an option..
.............

O Allah, on this day, beautify me with covering and chastity, cover me with the clothes of contentment and chastity, let me adhere to justice and fairness, and keep me safe from all that I fear, by Your protection, O the protector of the frightened.

2007-09-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, make me love goodness, and dislike corruption and disobedience, bar me from anger and the fire [of Hell], by Your help, O the helper of those who seek help.

2007-09-22T01:23:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, make me, among those who rely on You, from those who You consider successful, and place me among those who are near to you, by Your favour, O goal of the seekers.

2007-09-21T02:15:00.000+08:00

I can barely open my eyes at tis moment..
Even after a cup of coffee..
Been sleeping quite late the past few nites and getting up early for school..
In need of rest badly..
Recess week coming up next week..
But i doubt it'll be a week of so-called break from school..
Already had 3 project meetings..
And a couple of assignments to do, which need to be completed in the school's lab..
Since we need to use the "thousand-dollar" GIS software..

And the thing tat's stressing me the most is the Physics test after the recess week..
The module's so damn difficult, and i kind of regretted taking it..
But i'm still gonna give my very very best..
Even though now it's already making me super crazy...

And we're already into the second week of fasting..
Time flies by very fast when u're busy..
And the doa for the ninth day of Ramadhan..

O Allah, on this day, grant me a share from Your mercy which is wide, guide me towards Your shining proofs, lead me to Your all encompassing pleasure, by Your love, O the hope of the desirous.

2007-09-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, let me have mercy on the orphans, and feed [the hungry], and spread peace, and keep company with the nobleminded, O the shelter of the hopeful.

2007-09-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, help me with its fasts and prayers, and keep me away from mistakes and sins of the day, grant me that I remember You continously through the day, by Your assistance, O the Guide of those who stray.

2007-09-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, do not let me abase myself by incurring Your disobedience, and do not strike me with the whip of Your punishment, keep me away from the causes of Your anger, by Your kindness and Your power, O the ultimate wish of those who desire.

2007-09-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, place me among those who seek forgiveness. Place me among Your righteous and obedient servants, and place me among Your close friends, by Your kindness, O the most Merciful.

Doa for the 5th day of Ramadhan..
Was super busy yesterday preparing for classes..
feeling very tired now..
.....

2007-09-16T15:57:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, strengthen me in carrying out Your commands, let me taste the sweetness of Your rememberance, grant me, through Your graciousness, that I give thanks to You. Protect me, with Your protection and cover, O the most discerning of those who see.

2007-09-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my brother's 20th birthday..jus a simple celebration, with a small cake which i bought at the shop below jus before he reach home..wanted to buy the one from Royal Cakes, but din have time to go there..hehe..
His best fren, Rais and my cuz Naz came over and break fast with us..

I haven't even bought him any birthday present yesterday..
Just now, went to Vivo with Anwar and Dearie to hunt for his prezzies..
I bought him an Everlast watch while Dearie bought an Adidas bag for him..
Hope he like both of it..
And as usual, we took pics..

Was quite busy yesterday..din had time to post the doa for the third day of Ramadhan..

O Allah, on this day, grant me wisdom and awareness, keep me away from foolishness and pretention, grant me a share in every blessing You send down, by You generosity, O the most Generous.

2007-09-14T13:44:00.000+08:00

O Allah, on this day, take me closer towards Your pleasure, keep me away from Your anger and punishment, grant me the opportunity to recite Your verses (of the Qur'an), by Your mercy, O the most Merciful.

Watched Citarasa Selebriti on TV1 jus now with nenek, and both us were in tears when the host chatted with the guest artist..she was in tears too..if i was her, i'll be in tears too..
Ya Allah, give her happiness tat she deserve..give her strength to continue with her life journey..somehow, i felt sad..usually, when it comes to artists, i dun really bother so much..coz it's like so common for them..but jus now, i dunno why..jauhilah such things from happening to me and my loved ones..

Amin..

2007-09-13T13:18:00.000+08:00

It's the first day of fasting, and i'm already not feeling well..

Skipped lectures today and cancelled my tuition...

Maybe i should get some vitamins, like Diana said..

Resting at home now..

Hopefully i'll get better tomorrow..

O Allah, on this day make my fasts the fasts of those who fast (sincerely), and my standing up in prayer of those who stand up in prayer (obediently), awaken me in it from the sleep of the heedless, and forgive me my sins , O God of the worlds, and forgive me, O one who forgives the sinners.

Amin.

2007-09-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

I crashed a software in one of the computers in GIS Lab jus now..

I followed the instructions given in the tutorial closely, but when i din get the results i'm supposed to get, i called the lecturer over..

Lucky he said not to worry, coz they get those kind of cases quite often..

haha..

Aniway, yesterday, my Dearie had some problems with his family..

I hope it's solved..

And hope he's feeling better..

I tried my best to cheer him up..

It's not one of those things tat i'm good at..

Even with him, i'm kind of quite shy..

I dunno, shy to express my feelings..

shy to let them know tat i care about them..

shy to let them know tat i love them..

I want them to be happy all the time..

I'm working on it..

Last weekend, ate tulang with Dearie..

as always, at my favourite mama stall..

Kassim!!

Ramadhan's coming..

and mum asked me jus now whether i wanna go do the terawihs at the mosque this year..

usually we'll jus do it at home..

i told her we'll go if tat's wat she wants..

so which means i'll have to sacrifice my tv programs..

which i willingly will...

The time has come, to think and reflect..

Give us guidance..

Give us strenghts..

To change our attitutes, towards life and faith..

2007-09-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

It's only the 4th week of school, and readings are piling up like crazy..
And tutorials for this sem are super demanding..
And i always get picked out to give my views..
Somehow i'm the lecturer's and tutor's favourite pick..
Which also mean i have to read almost all the readings and familarise with the concepts before coming to class..
darn..

But despite all those hardcore modules, there's a module tat i enjoyed taking..
Sociology of Popular Culture..
And i was known as the "Chick flick movies girl"..
haha..
there's a group of girls actually, but it all started with me..
ain't it cool..
ahha..

Fiza was on crutches for a few days..
and me, being a caring and understanding fren, accompanies her almost everywhere..

As for myself, i dunno why, but my leg hurts..
to be more specific, from my thighs to my knee joints..
mum said probably i kicked something while walking..
since's it's the chinese's 7th month..
i don't tink i did..
but even if i do, is there's really something there tat's eating those things they offer..
i choose not to believe it..
7th month is not scary to me..
seeing people studying in the library, or even in the canteen..
well, actually all around school, engrossed in their readings..
tat's very scary for me..

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