I'm so tired and sleepy..
Din sleep at all last nite..
Was busy being with a fren who's having a prob with his guy..
it goes like tis..

She wanted to check a fren from school..
on frenster, with email address ***_*******@ hotmail.com, but instead, she wrongly typed the first 3 letters, and also instead of hotmail, she typed yahoo.com.sg..
Tat's a lot of mistakes..
but probably, tat's wat god wanna show in this holy month of ramadhan..
So she browsed through the profile and right at the end, she saw tis girl's edited pic with like a quarter of her boyfriend's face beside her..

from tat moment onwards, her mind went blank..she din know wat to do..
I told her to sleep, get some rest and deal with it tomorrow morning..
she tried, but she can't..
so i told her maybe she could study..
she took out her readings, but jus stare at it..
for the first time, she din know how to start..
and so i told her, maybe she could read a story book..
she took it out, but kept repeating the same sentence over and over again..
coz she forget wat she read..
I had no more ideas to suggest..
so i jus kept quiet and accompanied her..
when asked wat's she doing, she said she's jus sitting on her chair, staring blankly into the space..
i dunno wat to say, so jus kept quiet with her..
at times, she will break down..without being able to control it, tears flowed down her cheeks..
Tat's the most difficult part, coz i really dun know wat to do..

so i told her, if he loves u, he won't do anything to hurt her..
probably tat's a mistake on his side, taking pics so close with another person to tat extent..
but if he really loves her, he will admit tat and try to get her back, no matter wat it takes..
he'll do anything to make sure tat he'll live the rest of his life with her..

so she msged the guy..
first reply was, he's sleeping and told her to jus msg him..
wat does tat mean?
why must she jus msg him, why can't she jus call him and settle it directly..
probably he's outside, so he does not want her to hear the noisy background..
then after telling him wat she saw, she told him to leave her alone..
probably tat's a mistake on her side..
asking to be left alone..
but she was angry...nobody can blame her..
everyone asked to be left alone when they're mad..
but in actual fact, tat's the time when they really need someone to be there with them the most..
to assure them tat everything's gonna be fine..
even though when approached, they'll back off..
and they started replying to each other..
one of his msg was like, if u want to belah, jus do so..
ok, wat kind of word is tat? "belah"?
u dun say tat to ur girlfriend..
she din say she want to break up with him..
but tat was his response..
so maybe, he really has already start planning to leave her..

then he said his life's a mess now, alone and wanted to commit suicide to end it all..
and tat makes me tink..
I told her, she wouldn't want to live her life with someone like tat..
Thinking of commiting suicide at the slightest problem..
end it there,and let others settle his problem..
only cowards do tat..
i told her again, if he really love her deeply, he'll fight to stay with her..
he'll do anything to be with her..
by giving up, it jus shows tat he dun love her deep enough, or maybe he is guilty, and not brave enough to face the truth..
I told her, if they are meant to be toghether, no matter wat happens, they will end up together eventually..

I hope she's doing fine now..
as for me, i've cancelled my 2 tuitions today..
changed it to another day..
I dun tink it's fair for them even if i go..
coz i'm very very sleepy, and i dun wanna fall asleep in front of them while waiting for them to finish their work..
but at the same time, i can't get any sleep..
I'm going out with her, to somewhere quiet..
so jus sit with her and stare into the space together..
i know tat's wat she's gonna do..