better? maybe..

Another stay home saturday for me..din go anywhere..slept at 7 am and woke up at 11 plus..wanted to sleep longer, but i can't..so forced myself out of bed, had lunch after shower and went straight to my desk..

tried to start working on my assignments..failed..
tried again..failed..
and again..failed..

jus couldn't concentrate..
so decide to gather all the concepts so it'll be easier when i wanna write the essay..
read the readings on my bed..
dozed off..
argh..

i can't afford to waste anymore time..

spent the whole day trying to do the assignments..

sampai mlm, when he called..
alih2 ckp he was outside..
terkejut jap..

kind of funny la..
coz was watching what a girl wants, the scene where daphne's boyfriend came to her house, and she wasn't ready yet..and said, "dun let him in, i'm not even cute yet"

then lepas tu je he called and asked me to go out..haha..

aniway, was a bit rude..he gave the watches and then the necklace, which i refuse to take..then jus walk back to the gate and went in..

felt really bad..so i called him and said sorry..asked him to come back..hehe..

so once again, i went out..and for the first time in my life, i cried in front of someone.. never ever have i cry in front of ppl, apart from my immediate family la..

turn and faced the wall..buruk kan nangis in front of ppl..lain la kalau pelakon or smtg..haha..

i really dun know la..even at this moment, where things seem to have gone back to normal, i somehow feel like i'm still at the junction..undecided..uncertain..unclear..

but at least i feel better now..

at least, now, i tink i can concentrate on my work..