Tiring Day

Strange..din do much today but am so so tired...
went to school for my physical geog practical discussion..it's very very tough..
had to look at maps thru a stetoscope kind of thing..identify and describe the image we see..
very very tough, but when we actually get to see the image, it's cool..can even see the wave refractions, stacks, and even the rock strata..it's very very cool...but the map of grand canyon really gave us a hard time...

and the person working in the map resource room, is a B***H..i came a bit earlier than my group mates, so went to photocopy a geog text for diyanah..been bugging me to do tat, almost a month already..so went to sent jus now..on my way to the room, another diyana(notice this is without the h at the end, so it's another girl) messaged me, saying we're not allowed into the room..i was like, "WHAT?!?" i can't stay long..have tuitions..then when i came, diyana and fiza were bitching about her..loudly..outside the room..i went in and negotiate with her..and we're allowed to spent 15 minutes in there..*beams*said there's only 3 of us, thus she allow us in..then came Atikk..haha..she din say anything, but her eyes never stop lurking at us..then when diyanah finished her tutorial, she came over..and then there's too many of us..belum sempat diyanah masuk, she said, "I tot there's only 3 of u?" haha..diyanah was red, blushing or fuming, i don't know..she went out, stand outside the door and called Atikk..and she started bitching about her..and we could hear every single word..haha...diyana and fiza was already like, "OH my god"..haha..tat means, everything they said earlier can be heard..hahaha..we finish up our work quick and went out...discussed the practical further at Megabites..then decided that we need to go in again... haha..lagi sekali kena face tat b***h..though it's tough, had fun using the stetoscope and lots and lots of map...

left at about 10mins to 3..late again..rushed of to tuition and tuition..was too tired to teach tat i gave my student a mini test..almost dozed off while waiting for them to finish it..and regret giving them the test..should have teach, at least i'm doing the talking, so won't feel so sleepy..

not really a tiring day, but i dunno why, physically, i'm feeling very tired..and definitely mentally..and was a bit moody jus now..sorry to those who's affected by my moodyness..

aniway,on the bus, on my way to school..was messaging with Dearie..i love it..baru best, leh msg2 mcm gitu..almost instant replies..hehe..and was listening to my mp4, and a song which perhaps answers the question i posted at my previous blog..

cintu itu boleh diumpamakan bagai makan sambal belacan
walau pedas hingga mengalir air mata masih mau dimakan jua
cinta jangan dibuat macam goreng pisang
sungguh enak bila makan panas2
bila ia sejuk jadi kurang enak
hohoho
hilang sedapnya..

so tat's love..
for those, anyone, who's blog hopping and came across mine and dun understand a single thing..
tat's ur prob..
it's my personal blog, so as long as i understand wat i'm saying, tat's all tat matters...

but seriouly, ppl say, love can only be understood and experience when u've been hurt..
i have..i can say, more than once..
and i really hate tat experience..
but, wat if after tat, the love which has been built disappears..
am not talking about anything in particular here..
jus wondering..

there are many kinds of love in this world..
As for me,

I LoVe

god definitely..
my parents..
my brothers..
my grandma..
my relatives..
my frens..
my life..
$$$..
and definitely u, my dear..

note: tis is not placed in order..hehe...

alrighty..
till the next post..

Break from lectures

No lectures for this whole week...
Yippee..
Actually, only 3 out of 5 lectures are cancelled...one prof away having conference somewhere across the globe..another who's taking 2 of my modules having workshop..the other two; one always skip while the other watch the webcast..

stay home pun, sleep..eat..sleep..eat.hehehe..

1 more assignment to go and i can concentrate fully for my upcoming exams...

love life..so far so good..
forget wat had happen...
and move on..
but never will I forget..
wait a minute..
someone define love for me..

haiz..

beauty sleep..i need u..

oh yes..
i really need you..
seems like you went for a holiday..
a very long one..
and without me?
oh come back please...
my beauty sleep..
i need you very badly..

haha..result of lack of sleep..

i'm so very the tired..
slept for 2 hrs on monday, 5 hours on tuesday..
2+5= 7
hmm..
even after adding the two days together..
less than the recommended 8 hours of sleep tat we need every nite..

drank lots of coffee lately..
cups after cups..
dun really like the smell actually...
but strange how coffee can freshen me up..
i just can't wait for this assignments to be over..
i'll sleep and sleep..
get as much as i want..
before i face the final battle..
exams...
then my 3 months holiday!!!
yippie!!!

classes tis week was fun..had lots of laughs..lol..
guess everyone's stress now..
and jus wanna forget about it when they're around friends..
even the tiniest thing can lead to explosive laughters..
haha..

hmm..
hhmmmm...
hhhhmmmmmm...

ape je..
mepek eh?


~~bluek~~

Cinta

Kalau sebuah hati sudah diikat dengan sebuah cinta
Cincanglah ia, tetaklah ia
Dan hancurkanlah ia menjadi berkeping-keping

Hati akan hancur
Hati akan berderai
Bertukar menjadi daging dan darah

Tetapi cinta tetap akan bertaut
Menjadi satu
Tetap takkan berubah

better? maybe..

Another stay home saturday for me..din go anywhere..slept at 7 am and woke up at 11 plus..wanted to sleep longer, but i can't..so forced myself out of bed, had lunch after shower and went straight to my desk..

tried to start working on my assignments..failed..
tried again..failed..
and again..failed..

jus couldn't concentrate..
so decide to gather all the concepts so it'll be easier when i wanna write the essay..
read the readings on my bed..
dozed off..
argh..

i can't afford to waste anymore time..

spent the whole day trying to do the assignments..

sampai mlm, when he called..
alih2 ckp he was outside..
terkejut jap..

kind of funny la..
coz was watching what a girl wants, the scene where daphne's boyfriend came to her house, and she wasn't ready yet..and said, "dun let him in, i'm not even cute yet"

then lepas tu je he called and asked me to go out..haha..

aniway, was a bit rude..he gave the watches and then the necklace, which i refuse to take..then jus walk back to the gate and went in..

felt really bad..so i called him and said sorry..asked him to come back..hehe..

so once again, i went out..and for the first time in my life, i cried in front of someone.. never ever have i cry in front of ppl, apart from my immediate family la..

turn and faced the wall..buruk kan nangis in front of ppl..lain la kalau pelakon or smtg..haha..

i really dun know la..even at this moment, where things seem to have gone back to normal, i somehow feel like i'm still at the junction..undecided..uncertain..unclear..

but at least i feel better now..

at least, now, i tink i can concentrate on my work..

How long must I cry?

It's been a long time since I last updated my blog..been very busy with my assignments..wat else..I tot after not typing my thoughts for so long, I would have countless happy moments for me to type..i'm sorry to disappoint u bloggie..it's not wat u expected..

life have been cruel to me this past few days..

wasted 2 nights..
precious time...real precious, coz tat's the only time when I can work on my assignments..
haiz..

aniway, received a phone call jus now..jus finish tuition at crescent..walking down the flight of stairs..here's how it went:

~~Ring ring~~
Me: Hello..
Caller: Hello..
Me: Yeah?
Caller: Nisah?
Me: Yep..u are?
Caller: Oh, jus wanna ask whether u and ur boyfren are still together?
Me: Huh?
Caller: U and Ashri..Still together?
Me: Huh..? who's tis?
Caller: Me jus wanna know..
Me: Hey, u know wat? I'm not trying to be arrogant or something..but seriously, it's my life ok..I decide who I wanna be with..whether i'm still with him or not, I dun tink it concerns u..unless u're his mother or his wife la..
Caller: ...
Me: Look..I'm very busy at this moment..i dun have time for all this..jus dun disturb me animore..
~End of conversation~

I dun even know how i felt after tat..Fuming? Sad? Maybe..i dunno..

I dun even know who the caller was..

It all begin with a frenster msg from someone, who asked wat's my relationship with Ashri..Din answer tat qn, instead i asked her who she was..She din tell me at first, jus say tat she's kepo and wanna know..so ok, i decide to ignore..but womens' instinct..thank god we have tat powerful tool..so idecided to asked her, who she was..the reply really surprised me..she said she's his girl..

my room was spinning..how could u do tis to me?!?

Asked for her email add, so i could add to my msn and get to the bottom of this..

and so we chatted..at first i tot somebody jus wanna play with me..and seriously, at this time? not funny..

as we chatted, more and more things was mentioned..everything she said was true..like he bought a speaker, a belt..went to the it fair..everything was true..

until the point where she told me tat she actually receive a msg from him on V-day..and guess wat, it was exactly the same words..watever he sent me on tat day..tat was wat she typed out..I couldn't take it anymore..how did she know all tat..tis is too much..and she said they went out together on the 10th march..the weekend when i was away from singapore..why do u do this to me??

i tried to not believe watever tat was told by her..after all, i dun even know her..but i jus can't.. there's jus too many tat she knows about..and i can't find any fault in watever tat she said..all the dates she gave me, dates when they went out together..i wasn't with him..

i really dun know wat i should do next..i tried..i tried very hard to believe him..i really do try..

which girl will want to share love with someone else?
hhmmm..

How long must I cry??