Went to cousin’s place in the evening jus now with family..
Getting married tmr..
The decorations look grand..

She’s a year younger than me..
And already a married woman tmr..
Another cuzzie who’s also a year younger than me is also engaged..
I wonder wat’s the hurry..

Anyway, watched The Heartbreak Kid..
It was funny..
But not hilarious..
The trailer only has got the best snippets of the movie..
Feel so cheated..
But it was fun..

And the wife is really irritating..
Singing along with the radio..
If I was driving and the person sitting beside me were to behave in tat manner..
I guess I’ll kick her off my car..

I wonder how people can change so abruptly..
Life’s good for you..
And u be evil to others..
Humans..

I dun tink any of what u said were true..
Those words seem to come out from another person..
Someone totally different from the person I used to know..

How could you..
Those words were so painful it hurts more than being stabbed by a dagger..

But u know..
I can’t be bothered with you anymore..
I tried to be nice..
And tat’s how u treat me..
If I were to go down to ur level, I would have called you a Jerk..
I guess tat’s the best word tat can describe a person like you..
The current you..

Jus be happy with ur other half..
Sincerely from my heart..
Despite ur dreadful vocabulary..

Watched I am Legend..
Awesome movie..
Visualize yourself being alone in the country..
Tink I can go crazy..
Like him, begging a mannequin to say hello to him..
Only thing I dun really understanding was tat where did all those hideous looking creatures came from..
I presume they were infected by the deadly disease..
Probably wasn’t really concentrating when they talked abt tat part..
Tat usually happens..
When the movie is too long..
My mind tend to sway away from it..

Alright..
Next will be…

National Treasure: Book of Secrets
Or maybe Good Luck Chuck

Received another call again jus now..
Enquiring about tuition..
when i first started giving tuition..
It used to be me looking for them..
now it's the other way round..
if i'm taking all of them who called, i'll be super busy..
and super tired..
i suppose it's good tat my current tutees' parents recommend me to their frens..
which means my current tutees are doing well..
and tat's the best thing i can ever wish for from them..
and i hope i can continue assisting my tutees to greater heights..

I noticed something..
I like to pose for a picture behind the car..
Which is rather amusing..Coz people usually pose in front of the car..




The first picture was taken during the KL trip in July..
And the second one was during the recent KL trip..

And we always go to KL..
And this recent trip was my suggestion..
Can’t help it..
It’s the nearest and inexpensive place to shop..

But actually my main purpose was to buy One Tree Hill Season 4..
Which I finish watching it within 3 days..
And when I was watching it..
My little brother watched it too..
And he’s hooked to it..so is my cousin..
And now, he start watching it from Season 1..
Which means another round of One Tree Hill for me..
Haha..
And I’m so loving it..


MERRY CHRISTMAS

It was all shouting and cheering yesterday..
Not me..
The participants and audiences at Ngee Ann Convention Centre..
Went for the dikir barat competition, Piala Khatulistiwa..
Coz my Dearie is one of those who took part..
He was the “awok-awok”..
Or whatever they call it..

The performances were great..
The audiences were not..
In fact, personally, I think they were rude..
Extremely bad-mannered..
Yes it is a dikir comp, but that doesn’t mean u can holler out remarks any time you want..
And not merely normal comments..
Nasty comments were directed towards the participants at times..
And tat’s really rude..

And when results were announced..
Yes, I do understand the winning team were extremely happy..
But tat doesn’t give them a reason to celebrate like as if no ones there..
I can say almost 99% of the people there are Malays..
So have some respect for tat la..
And have some respect for the guest of honour..
I could see the change in his face when he saw how they celebrated their win..
From a smile to a grimace..
How could he not..
Girls and guys were hugging each other, jumping like mad..
Guys carrying their team mates as they run down the sidewalks..
Part of me was hoping they all fell down the flight of stairs..

It was a great effort on the organizers side..
But the audiences spoilt it somehow..
They should be given a lesson on social etiquette..
Though it’s very much common sense actually..

Even so, tat doesn’t spoil my mood for the rest of the evening..
And I’m so glad it didn’t..
After the whole thing, went for dinner with Dearie and Anwar..
And after so long, I realized something..
He will, without fail, feed me first whatever tat he’s having..
No matter how hungry he is..
Like yesterday, when he haven’t had anything to eat since morning..
He still gave me the first scoop of his meal..


Tat’s sweet actually..
Very sweet..
But on the other side, it could be tat he always gives me the first bite to see if the food’s raw or doesn’t taste nice or if it’s poison or not..
And if I suddenly drop dead after the first bite, he’s safe..
Haha..
Wat a thought..
I was kidding k dear..
I know u wouldn’t do tat to me..
And I love the fact tat u always give me the first bite..
Like I say..
It’s very sweet..
Though I always never do the same to him with my meal..
And especially when I’m hungry..

And after dinner, we left Anwar on the street..
No, we’re not evil..
Dad said he’ll come and fetch him home..
And it’s only about 8pm..
And I still haven’t feel like leaving Dearie yet..
So we left him there to wait for dad and made our way..
…….
….

I received 2 calls yesterday..
Which kind of surprised me..
They were enquiring about my tuition service..
Apparently, my tutee’s parent gave my number to his colleagues..
And recommended me to them..
Humph, gave out my number without my permission..
But when the caller said, my fren recommend you to me coz he said u very good..
Haha..
Tat really brought a smile to my face…
But I haven’t confirm anything with them..
Coz they’re staying in Toa Payoh..
So, I said, I’ll tink about it..

Ok..
I tink I’ve blabbered too much already..
Time for me to catch up on all the movies tat I’ve missed..
Which has been conveniently burned to dvd..
Enjoy the rest of this lovely day people..

My brother’s still not home yet..
He went for a fren’s chalet, and didn’t inform any of us tat he’s gonna stay out..
And while he’s out there could not be reached by phone..
I’m the one here who gets the continuous nagging..
Tat’s so unjust..
And I had to call a number of his frens so early in the morning..
Some even answered with their sexy-jus-get-out-of-bed tone of voice..
Even though it’s way past Subuh..
Guess I did dragged them out of bed..

Yes, I’m kind of worried as hell now..
But managed to get in touch with one of his friend, and told me he’s at the chalet..
But at this moment, he went out for a while..
And his hp is in his bag..
Well, at least I’m not so worried now..

I jus found out something
Which is rather amusing
A primary school classmate of mine is currently dating my primary school classmate..
Alright, both of them were my classmates back in primary school..
There’s nothing out of the ordinary or amusing about it actually..
Jus tat, back then..
They used to fight a lot..
As far as I can reminisce, they can’t stand each other..
Any closer than 10 meters, they’ll start bickering at each other..
Backbiting each other..
And now they’re together..
The power of love..
Haha..

And another one of my classmate from primary school too..
Who got engaged middle of this year..
Jus broke off..
Hopes she’ll be able to move on with life..
Coz the last time I chatted with her..
She was all crazy over him..
There’s someone out there better for you girl..

Lovely dinner..
With dearly loved frens..



Asal my face blur, and diana's not..
hmmph..
tak puas hati nie..

To the anonymous person who gave me a comment for one of my post..
Whoever you may be..
Thank you so much..

Thank you for the 3 words..

Patience
Focus
God

Those 3 words helped me get thru that difficult time..
Which has now been solved..
And an issue of the past..

I always had those 3 words in my mind..
But I ranked it the other way round..

I put God as my number 1..
Always has been..and always will be..
With the peace of mind after seeking strength from Him..
Then only I was able to Focus more..
Put the problem aside and concentrate..
And finally Patience..
If it’s meant for you, it’ll be..

Once again..
Thank you Mr/Ms/Mdm Anonymous

Sat for my third paper jus now, out of 4 exams tat I have this sem..
Dreadfully difficult..
Not jus the one just now..
All the 3 papers that I have sat for..

Bleah..

But I did try my very best though..
Squeezed my brain..
For every piece of info in there..

Paper ended in the evening jus now, so went home straight..
For most of my frens, it was their last paper jus now..
And they were hooraying as they walked out the hall..
Purposely make me jealous..

But the one thing tat really made my heart pain..
Was this group of Chinese girls..
4 of them..
After the paper..
On my way home..
I was walking at the overhead bridge that’s over the AYE
And they were few steps in front of me..
Talking very loudly..
About what movie to watch later at VivoCity..
Then..
Suddenly stopped in the middle of the bridge..
Faced the road..
And shouted..
“Yeay!! Exams over!!”

Imagine how I felt!!

It’s ok..
Few more days only..

And revision without Dearie here is actually not tat bad..
Ahha..
He’ll usually, with his stubborn, obstinate, mulish and adamant head, will wait till I finish studying, then only he’ll go to bed..

And I dun like that..
Especially when he have to get up early to work the next day..
But no worries for tat tis week..
He’s somewhere far holidaying with his family..
Have fun Dearie..

Now, 1 more paper to concentrate on..

And I officially have only ONE more semester to endure..

I love u more than my own life
Prove it

I do not have anyone else but u
Prove it

I swear that I love only u
Prove it

I have only one love
Prove it

I’m going crazy
I really need to focus
These things are driving me crazy

Woke up at about 11plus tis morning..
So, no breakfast..
Was rushing out after tat..
So, no lunch..
Haven’t had dinner up till tis hour..
Grabbed a couple of my favourite Famous Amos cookies, and surprisingly, manage to nibble down a piece only..
Jus couldn’t find the appetite to eat..

God, give me strength..
I need it at tis crucial period..
Final Year..
I can’t afford to not make the grade..

Each time I think about us
My tears will never stop flowing
I’ve never imagined it to turn out this way
Coz I never want it to happen
But what can I do
You want it tat way

No matter what it is
You will always be in my prayers
Jus like how u’ve always been all these while

I don’t understand why
I really don’t
Things always happen when I’m at my busiest
Is it because I neglected you way too much?
I’m sorry if I do

I don’t know what I should do now

But no matter what I do
It’ll only be futile
Since u’ve made ur choice
I believe in fate
In destiny
If we’re meant to be together
We will be

I promise I’ll return all the things u’ve given me
Thanx for letting me enjoy it even though it’s jus for a short while
Thanx for letting me share my dreams with you

My dreams with you
Yes
Jus like wat the word mean
Imaginative thoughts humans indulged in

My dreams
Our dreams together
Will jus remain a dream

Oh No!!

I'm hooked to YouTube..
Now i so can't wait for exams to be over..

2 more weeks of hardwork..
I can do it..

My new desktop background..
Such an eyeful to look at..

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Great..
Everyone’s through with their exams..
Everyone except me..
Ok, I’m exaggerating..
Not people from school la..
But people I know, like my best fren, my good fren, my fren..
Argh..
I hate times like this..
When people get to enjoy and I don’t..
I wanna relax too!!!
Never mind..
I’ll get my fair share soon..

Shall not get distracted with the thought that the rest are already enjoying themselves..
I can do it!!!

They made me treat them to a movie, The Game Plan..
Jus because i made them wait for me for about 30minutes..
My way of paying back..
Bought them some Sushi..
Put lots of wasabi and made them eat it..
Captured some moments when they were about to eat it..
Too bad din get to capture after they ate it..
Coz they went wild after a few chews..

The little imp....


And...

His accomplice..

These are the sweetest words anyone has ever said to me..

U r the only one that has captivated my heart
U opened many doors to my life
U r the only 1 for me to spend the rest of my life with

I Love You..

ANd dun stop those sweet words from reaching my ear..
;p

When i look at this picture then only i realised that my notice board is so messy!!
Anyway, tat's me tis afternoon before going out to school..

Jus now, at Vivo with the little imp and his accomplice, while we were walking towards the escalator, we heard a loud “Aargh!!”
We hurried over, not coz we were being ‘kepo’, but we were in the first place walking towards it..
An old lady just fell down the steps..
Her head was bleeding profusely..
Yes, profusely..
Hmm, a word tat I always asked my tutees to use..hehe..
But, seriously, the blood almost like gushed out the left side of her head..
Lots of drips on the floor..
I could feel the excruciating pain she is suffering inside..
Almost cried..
But the little imp and his accomplice always spoil the mood..

Did lots of photocopying in school jus now..
Thanx to the little imp and his accomplice, we manage to finish it faster..
Now all the piles of reading are within reach, I’m all set to face this ultimate battle..
For this semester..

Then there’ll be only ONE more semester left!!!

HoOoOrAaAayY..

It's been so long!!
Have been way way waayyyyyyy too busy..
With projects and assignments..
Even though no more tuitions after school, i still feel as tired as then..
Like no difference..
but at least, i get to go home straight after school..
sometimes..

And jus now was one of those days..
and i so miss my afternoon naps..
Used to get tat alot during pre-U days..
So jus now, i finally get to enjoy my afternoon nap..
It feels so good..
despite the drilling noise from downstairs..
the final project floating around in my head..
and especially the hullabaloo from my ever irritating brother..
which by the way, the person who captured tat image below..
can never get a peaceful nap with him around..



One more project to go..
After the submission tis monday, i'll then get to concentrate fully for exams..
I so can't wait for this semester to be over..
It's like Hell on Earth..
*screams in silence*

I'm so fed up with blogspot..
Been trying to upload some pics from jus now, but still can't do it..
Argh..
Give up..

Tis page her has been abandoned for too long now..
There's so many that i wanna write about, but none seems to be in my mind now..
Tis week is so hectic..
And today was so tiring for me..
Spent the whole day in school, finishing up projects..
Deadlines to meet..
Assignments, projects, test, and exams!!
Can't wait for all of it to be over..
I'm so tired already..

And i'm so in need of sleep..
And to whoever that it may concern, at these kind of period, all i'm asking for is a bit of understanding..
Thank you..

O Allah, on this day, make me among those who love Your friends, and hate Your enemies, following the way of Your last Prophet, O the Guardian of the hearts of the Prophets.

Finally, I feel a bit relax after a whole week of craziness over deadlines and tests..
I think I did good for my Geog test..
But i'll be satisfied with watever the results is, coz i know i've tried my very best..

Went to VivoCity with Ijam jus now..
Coz we had an appointment with a lady..
And it's at Coffee Bean at 8.30pm..
So after Maghrib, we made our way there..
While waiting for the lady to arrive, we attacked the brownie..
Which is so heavenly delicious..
And as usual, joke around and took the silly-est pictures i ever had..




We put chocolate fudge on our teeth and did "cchhheeesssseeee"

Aniway, been very very busy preparing for the tests that I din have time to put up the daily doas for Ramadhan..Here's for the 23th of the month..

O Allah, on this day, wash away my sins, purify me from all flaws, examine my heart with (for) the piety of the hearts, O One who overlooks the shortcomings of the sinners.

O Allah, on this day, multiply for me its blessings, and ease my path towards its bounties, do not deprive me of the acceptance of its good deeds, O the Guide towards the clear truth.

I just found out yesterday that my ex-classmates bumped someone I dun wanna see for the rest of my life..
Lucky I din follow them, coz they were persuading me to go for almost a week..
And she actually hang out with them for a while..
Of course they don't know the issue between me and her..
But just imagine the discomfort if i was there..
Suck..
I don't know if they've invited her for the Jalan Raya..
I don't care actually, coz i'm not goin..

Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I choose to fight

Life's too short
And there's no time to waste on giving up
So I choose to fight

And sometimes
I need you to give me the courage and strength to go on


Ok, I dun know wat nonsense i'm writing..
I'm jus so bloody stress with all the work load..
Urgh!!

O Allah, on this day, awaken me with the blessings of its early mornings, Illuminate my heart with the brightness of its rays, let every part of my body follow its effects, by Your light, O the illuminator of the hearts of those who know.

O Allah, on this day, guide me towards righteous actions, fulfil my needs and hopes, O One who does not need explanations nor questions, O One who knows what is in the chests of the (people of the) world. Bless Muhammad and his family, the Pure.

Spent almost the whole day in school yesterday despite recess week..
It's more of like a catching-up wwek rather than recess week..
Done with my second GIS lab work yesterday..
3 more lab assignments to go..
Already going crazy after doing the first 2..
This is wat i did..
Yes, it look easy to do..
Similar to those we see in textbooks..
But try doing it first then judge the difficulty..
Have to include the different data sets and map elements..
Troublesome..
Now left with the report and completing the questions and i'm done with it..

Meeting Fiza and Diyana tomorrow to gather materials for our project..

Hope it'll be fun..

Recess week is almost over, but i still have a lot of work to do..
1 more lab report to be done, a physics essay, and a geog essay, both 5-7 pages long, all need to be submitted next week..
And on top of that, have to study for 2 test coming up next week..

Gonna have 2 project meetings in school later during the day..
And i haven't even had a wink of sleep..
Wanted to stop everything tat i was doing jus now, surrender for the night, and continue the next day..
but looking at the number of days i have left before school starts, i changed my mind..
went to make a cup of coffee instead..

Saw Anwar's exam timetable which he put up on our mini-notice board, and saw these words..
which kind of motivates me..

"Success comes from both intelligence and persistent diligence"

But still, to conclude all these..
I am currently super duper stressed out..
So if u wanna mess with me, jus be prepared for the consequences..

O Allah, on this day, grant me compatability with the good, keep me away from patching up with the evil, lead me in it, by Your mercy, to the permanent abode, by Your Godship, O the God of the worlds.

Why?
Why do people feel the pain of losing someone only when they’ve lost that someone..
Or on the verge of losing tat someone..
But when that someone’s back..
They take things for granted..

One part of me just wants to tell you everything
One part just needs the quiet











It takes time for a broken heart to mend

I don't know why
So don’t ask me why
You know that I'm just the kind of girl that feels so hurt and smiles

You don't even know a thing I feel inside
By the look in my eye
That I'm just fine
But the actual fact is that
I might need you
To hold me tight

O Allah, on this day, grant me the obedience of the humble expand my chest through the repentance of the humble, by Your security, O the shelter of the fearful.

O Allah, on this day, do not condemn me for slips, make me decrease mistakes and errors, do not make me a target for afflictions and troubles, by Your honor, O the honor of the Muslims.

I've tis hidden craze with One Tree Hill..
and i'm so in love with that song..
"What hurts the most" by Rascal Flatts..
It makes me feel better..
but at the same time it made me cry..
haiz..
strange, but true..

O Allah, on this day, purify me from uncleanliness and dirt, make me patient over events that are decreed, grant me the ability to be pious, and keep company with the good, by Your help, O the beloved of the destitute.

I'm so tired and sleepy..
Din sleep at all last nite..
Was busy being with a fren who's having a prob with his guy..
it goes like tis..

She wanted to check a fren from school..
on frenster, with email address ***_*******@ hotmail.com, but instead, she wrongly typed the first 3 letters, and also instead of hotmail, she typed yahoo.com.sg..
Tat's a lot of mistakes..
but probably, tat's wat god wanna show in this holy month of ramadhan..
So she browsed through the profile and right at the end, she saw tis girl's edited pic with like a quarter of her boyfriend's face beside her..

from tat moment onwards, her mind went blank..she din know wat to do..
I told her to sleep, get some rest and deal with it tomorrow morning..
she tried, but she can't..
so i told her maybe she could study..
she took out her readings, but jus stare at it..
for the first time, she din know how to start..
and so i told her, maybe she could read a story book..
she took it out, but kept repeating the same sentence over and over again..
coz she forget wat she read..
I had no more ideas to suggest..
so i jus kept quiet and accompanied her..
when asked wat's she doing, she said she's jus sitting on her chair, staring blankly into the space..
i dunno wat to say, so jus kept quiet with her..
at times, she will break down..without being able to control it, tears flowed down her cheeks..
Tat's the most difficult part, coz i really dun know wat to do..

so i told her, if he loves u, he won't do anything to hurt her..
probably tat's a mistake on his side, taking pics so close with another person to tat extent..
but if he really loves her, he will admit tat and try to get her back, no matter wat it takes..
he'll do anything to make sure tat he'll live the rest of his life with her..

so she msged the guy..
first reply was, he's sleeping and told her to jus msg him..
wat does tat mean?
why must she jus msg him, why can't she jus call him and settle it directly..
probably he's outside, so he does not want her to hear the noisy background..
then after telling him wat she saw, she told him to leave her alone..
probably tat's a mistake on her side..
asking to be left alone..
but she was angry...nobody can blame her..
everyone asked to be left alone when they're mad..
but in actual fact, tat's the time when they really need someone to be there with them the most..
to assure them tat everything's gonna be fine..
even though when approached, they'll back off..
and they started replying to each other..
one of his msg was like, if u want to belah, jus do so..
ok, wat kind of word is tat? "belah"?
u dun say tat to ur girlfriend..
she din say she want to break up with him..
but tat was his response..
so maybe, he really has already start planning to leave her..

then he said his life's a mess now, alone and wanted to commit suicide to end it all..
and tat makes me tink..
I told her, she wouldn't want to live her life with someone like tat..
Thinking of commiting suicide at the slightest problem..
end it there,and let others settle his problem..
only cowards do tat..
i told her again, if he really love her deeply, he'll fight to stay with her..
he'll do anything to be with her..
by giving up, it jus shows tat he dun love her deep enough, or maybe he is guilty, and not brave enough to face the truth..
I told her, if they are meant to be toghether, no matter wat happens, they will end up together eventually..

I hope she's doing fine now..
as for me, i've cancelled my 2 tuitions today..
changed it to another day..
I dun tink it's fair for them even if i go..
coz i'm very very sleepy, and i dun wanna fall asleep in front of them while waiting for them to finish their work..
but at the same time, i can't get any sleep..
I'm going out with her, to somewhere quiet..
so jus sit with her and stare into the space together..
i know tat's wat she's gonna do..

Am i stupid?

Or..
am i stupid?



I just feel like running away from all these..
and see what happens next..
maybe tat's an option..
.............

O Allah, on this day, beautify me with covering and chastity, cover me with the clothes of contentment and chastity, let me adhere to justice and fairness, and keep me safe from all that I fear, by Your protection, O the protector of the frightened.

O Allah, on this day, make me love goodness, and dislike corruption and disobedience, bar me from anger and the fire [of Hell], by Your help, O the helper of those who seek help.

O Allah, on this day, make me, among those who rely on You, from those who You consider successful, and place me among those who are near to you, by Your favour, O goal of the seekers.

I can barely open my eyes at tis moment..
Even after a cup of coffee..
Been sleeping quite late the past few nites and getting up early for school..
In need of rest badly..
Recess week coming up next week..
But i doubt it'll be a week of so-called break from school..
Already had 3 project meetings..
And a couple of assignments to do, which need to be completed in the school's lab..
Since we need to use the "thousand-dollar" GIS software..

And the thing tat's stressing me the most is the Physics test after the recess week..
The module's so damn difficult, and i kind of regretted taking it..
But i'm still gonna give my very very best..
Even though now it's already making me super crazy...



And we're already into the second week of fasting..
Time flies by very fast when u're busy..
And the doa for the ninth day of Ramadhan..

O Allah, on this day, grant me a share from Your mercy which is wide, guide me towards Your shining proofs, lead me to Your all encompassing pleasure, by Your love, O the hope of the desirous.

O Allah, on this day, let me have mercy on the orphans, and feed [the hungry], and spread peace, and keep company with the noble­minded, O the shelter of the hopeful.